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dulcylee 
8:48pm
I got a call this AM that my cousin & her husband will be losing their baby. She is currently 20wks PG & went in for her regular u/s. The tech immediately noticed something wrong & called the OB in. The baby has no kidney development, little to no amniotic fluid, and is weighing only 8oz (should be about 12oz). They were unable to really see a face or the gender but they did see the little angel's heart beating. The lungs will not develop due to the lack of fluid. They are ultimately going to lose the baby, but are unsure when. They were sent to several doctors & a genetic counselor yesterday to confirm the diagnosis of Potter's Syndrome. She is not expected to make it more then a couple weeks. My cousin is very much at a loss. She said she just cries ~ as she thinks about the baby that is growing yet dying inside of her. Please pray for them.
I went into my OB today for my f/u after my episiotomy revision & ouch....I had to have it done again! Basically the "growth" that my OB was thinking was a granuloma/hemtoma/scarring (tissue that is healing & a clot) is concerning to him now. It is growing out of the inside of my vagina (sorry if TMI) from the episiotomy site. He cut it off again & burned the surrounding area. If it grows back again then he will take me into surgery to remove it more aggressively & send it to pathology. I pray it is nothing serious & that this second attempt does the trick. I am so uncomfortable & will be back at work for the next two days. There is a big chance I will have to float to another unit tomorrow (something I HATE)....please pray that I don't & that it turns out to be a calm day so I am not hurting too much.
Happy Thanksgiving to you all. May you all be blessed & thankful for your lives & loved one.
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Three months.....it has been three months since my beautiful little girl came into this world. It has been the best three months of my life. I simply love being her mommy. She brings a smile to my face & pure joy to my heart.
As we approach Thanksgiving I am reminded every day of this beautiful girl I am so thankful for. She has brought me back to life. I am thankful for the chance to be her mommy. I am thankful for my life, my husband, my family, my home.....but above all for her!!!! I would never even attempt to understand my years of infertility or my miscarriages but in a strange way I know that all of those things happened for a divine reason. DANICKA!!!! She is the reason ~ I was & am meant to be her mommy!!!!! She has brought my mom & step-dad thru a very dark time in their life with the loss of their home & all of their belongings....she has made their world bright once again. It is amazing how such a sweet tiny girl can change the world so much for so many people. My little girl has done that & so much more!!!!
This year I am going to be even more grateful during Thanksgiving & believe even more in the miracle of Christmas.....my eyes are wide open, my heart is warm, and my life is full of miracles. I am alive & I am finally a mother of the most precious child ever!
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Well said. Not sure what else to say. Lots of love your way.
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This entry brought tears to my eyes, I feel exactly the same way. We have so much to be thankful for
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She is beautiful. You must be so proud.
She looks very well looked after.
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What a beautiful entry. Congratulations on your little bundle of joy. Babies are very precious, and I can understand why you will be more thankful this yr. and the miracle of Christmas will be even more special. And because of what you went through with previous miscarriages she is even more precious! What a gift, from God! You brought tears to my eyes.
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You are a blessed woman!
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Congratulations. You sound so happy and you deserve to be. Remember that your husband is important too - LOL. Have a blessed Thanksgiviing.
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It is a blessing! I couldn't agree with you more. Wishes for a wonderful Thanksgiving for you & your family Dulcy! Hugs
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I couldn't agree more!
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beautiful entry. I also couldn't agree more!
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Ah.. what a sweet entry!
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Continued blessings for you all!!!
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My last entry was over a month ago now but the feeling of pure love that I have for my daughter has just intensified ~ I didn't think that was possible but it really is. One of my friends wrote that her cup runneth over.....that truly does say it all! My cup runneth over & over & over & over!
It is hard to be back at work. My heart is no longer in nursing the way it should be. I struggle on the days that I have to leave Danicka & go to the hospital to take care of others ~ all I want to do is take care of her. She really is what I live for now. I took her in to meet the RE staff yesterday. They all said they could see how happy I am now, how she has brought a smile back to my face & my heart.....she really has.....my heart is overjoyed by being her mommy. The last three years of IF & m/c were such a struggle but the pain is a distant memory when I look into Dani's eyes & see her smile. For Halloween she was a bag of money (very cute & very appropriate I think) but as much as I jest about her costing a lot of money she is worth every last penny & so much more!!!!
She is 11 weeks today. I can't believe how big she has gotten in such a short amount of time. I took her into the pediatrician for her 2 mth check-up & she was already 9.5lbs & 23in long. She is in the 15th percentile for weight & 75th for height. She is long & skinny....so pretty I might add. She is smiling & laughing all of the time, she wakes happy & goes to sleep at night happy. I am so lucky with this kid's easy disposition. Even as I write this entry she is lying next to me on the couch just looking at me with her big inquisitive eyes.
My BIL & SIL had a baby boy on the 13th.....he is exactly 8wks (almost to the minute) younger then Danicka & is the same size. He is a moose ~ I am so thankful my little girl is & was exactly that ~ little!!!! I complain about having to go to work 3 days a week but I really shouldn't since my BIL only got 12 days with his son before being shipped out (he is a Marine). I am grateful for every minute I have with her ~ I will say it again ~ my cup runneth over!!!!!!!!
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Happy 11th week Bday Danika! Yes, the love that we have for our LO is magical and grow everyday, Zach is 9 months old and I am loving him a little bet more every second. Enjoy, enjoy and enjoy! Being a Mother is the best thing ever!
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Yes, "my cup runneth over" was all I could think of when I first looked at my son. Its as if my heart grew 10 sizes! Lucas is only 2 weeks old but it feels as if he has always been with us. I'm so happy for you and little Dani! You deserve all the happiness you are receiving now!! Enjoy!
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My cup runneth over as well. Life couldn't be better! So glad life is so good for you, you deserve noting but pure happiness
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So glad things are going so well!
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Dulcy, This journal brought tears to my eyes. I'm so happy for you. I can't wait till my "cup runneth over" as well. Love ya, Tammy
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How wonderful to hear this update. So glad motherhood is going well for you.
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I am so very happy for you and your family!! Continued Blessings!
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I am so happy for you and your husband! There is nothing more rewarding than being a mom.
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I agree, my cup runneth over as well! What a great way to put it. I'm so happy for you!
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What a great entry! I look forward to the day my DH and I can meet our twins and feel the love you are describing although it's hard to imagine...at just 8 weeks and 2 days my heart already feels so full with love for them and otehr than via ultrasound, we haven't even met them yet. Motherhood seems to suit you my friend...congrats!
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My gosh, how horrible for your dear cousin...I cannot imagine much worse. It is exactly as you say, baby growing and dying inside of you at the same time, and you waiting for the baby to be born, only to die....:( And I think it is definitely worse as baby gets older, to lose it. It is one thing if you have a miscarriage way in the beginning, which is also terrible, but usually, once you get past the first trimester, things are supposed to be ok. I will keep them in my prayers!
As for the episiotomy, I am very sorry to hear that you have to have it re-done. I am sure that the tests should be fine. If you decide to have another baby, you may re-consider whether you even want that episiotomy. I have heard that actually, most natural tears heal better than tissue which is cut straight. A tear, even when stitched up, heals more in a zig-zag, zipper-like effect, supposedly. I did get a tear with my first one, and it healed very well. Good luck with the healing...and again, I am so sad to hear of the pain your cousin must be going thru.
Franny7
I have tears running down my face I cannot
imagine what your cousin is going through.
I hope your episotomy heals this time, I can't believe you had to have it fixed again. This has to be the last time.
Have a happy thanksgiving we have so much to be thankful for
4EVERinLOVE
I am so very sorry to hear about your cousin. My heart aches for her and her husband and of that sweet life inside her. She'll be in my prayers.
I hope you finally fully heal. Hace a wonderful Thanksgiving
jamie329
I am so very sorry for your cousin. I will be praying for the whole family but especially her and her husband. I pray for a quick healing and good report for you. Lots of love your way.
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