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patti22 
7:08pm Sunday
I used to beg my ex over and over to hold me when I was hurting.
When he hurt, I used to listen and "make him feel like home", yet when I hurt I was told that I was "flipping out". He also said that he wouldn't give it because I was demanding it, and I was a "black hole". So the end result was, he would love me, just Never when I was hurting.
So lately my back has been hurting me a lot, and my kids have been giving me so much love.
And it Floors me. And I find that I'm NOT the "black hole"....I don't need or want them doing it 24/7....in fact I probably have a pretty hard time accepting it, if I'm honest.
But my son's throwing my own words back at me: "Everyone deserves Love." I guess the darned kid was listening after all.
It's just so strange. It's wonderful. And it's also a kind of Out of Control feeling. My kids are teaching me that I've Always had trust issues.....issues that far predated my ex. The two of them positively ganged up on me to help me feel better.
I wonder if anyone else can relate to this.
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GeocacherNY
AWww Patti, you have raised two wonderful kids....Wow, that is awesome. Your ex sounds a bit like mine with this(altho mine could never give me anything at anytime),....I am happy for you...the world does indeed turn the way it is supposed to, doesn't it. It's all good..
Hugs...
hockeymom5592
Yep When your ex plays head games and constantly puts you down for having normal needs It gets really hard to start asking for your needs to be met in another relationship. I struggle a lot with that in new relationships.
zippid
Hmmm, I am sorry about your back. Take care of it. See you are teaching your kids that any relationship is about give and take. That truely is awesome. Hugs
nancyneds
Kids... Arent they great
dirtdiva
I live for my kids I want them to be happier than me. I think they can have it if I learn how to be happy. I'm glad yours are teaching you back. They are priceless.
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