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unknowing1
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About Me
hi, i am 44 recently seperated after 10 years raising my soon to be 7 yr. old grandaughter[she is my strength due to a job injury i am what they call disabled some days i feel that way others not so much. i love to cook and entertain i love country music and soft rock but there is alot of all kinds of music i like. i am adventurous love beautiful peaceful places mountains, oceans and forests i love being under the stars, sunsets are a big turn oni admit i am bi-polar but i change like the wind no local family but i talk to my mom [my biggest fan and best friend daily] i am trying to find my place in life again i am big into romance and try to show who i am in everything i do i live for honesty and cant forgive dishonest people in my life i am a bit of a neat freak some cant handle that but its me i have had a depression problem for a long time but the right circle helps that there is alot of awful things ive been through but i am trying to learn w/ everything i guess you can call me a care taker i was a CNA for15 years and like taking care of people currently i am trying to take care of self and raise my girl the best i can.i love movies [love stories drama sci-fi and horror movies]the man that left me[DAN] still likes to try to control my life i am trying to learn not to fall backwards sadly my heart dosent always listen to my head but live and learn and i am trying to learn how to live w/ what i feel is best in my life through all i have endured and i am still alive i know there is something i have to offer so i am starting over [AT LEAST THATS MY GOAL]
hi, i am 44 recently seperated after 10 years raising my soon to be 7 yr. old grandaughter[she is my strength due to a job injury i am what they call disabled some days i feel that way others not so much. i love to cook and entertain i love country music and soft rock but there is alot of all kinds of music i like. i am adventurous love beautiful peaceful places mountains, oceans and forests i love being under the stars, sunsets are a big turn oni admit i am bi-polar but i change like the wind no
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COOKING i show how i feel through it i show love and it relaxes me. CAMPING in a heartbeat if offered i would be in the woods or mountains living simple and free.ASTRONOMY and learning different religous beliefs. I like meeting people i show alot of emotion which i know isint always the best thing but its who i am. I LOVE ROMANCE but only sincerity and unfortunately i find out too late when its false i build walls around myself to try to keep from being hurt but when someone is able to find the weak part i show everthing i can
COOKING i show how i feel through it i show love and it relaxes me. CAMPING in a heartbeat if offered
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May the Spring bring you many showers of love !
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Thinking about you ...and wanting to send love and hugs....hope you are feeling better...take care dear one....hope to hear from you one day....
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Laura: How's that hand of yours , comomng along ? Are you enjoying the cast ? Remember it won't be long before you'll be seperated from it ! , Think you'll miss that weight ! LOL Hug !
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Hi Laura~ Sending a hug tonight...and hopeing you are getting better and better....Take care dear one...and I miss you...
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Hi Laura, been a while. How are you doing? I'll try to check in more often. yes, thats me. LOL Tim
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Close Breakups & Divorce
SHORT AND HURTFULL MARRIED HE CHEATED KEEPS CHEATING AND EVERTHING IS ALWAYS MY FAULT ACCORDING TO HIM SEPERATED AND TRYING TO RE-GAIN TRUST
Treatments
- Forgiveness Not Working
- STILL NOT THERE
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- FORGET IT
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- THEY TRY
- Time Not Working
- HE KEEPS TRYING TO BE AROUND ME BUT I KNOW HE IS STILL WITH HER
Close Chronic Pain
bars and cage in back scribed every drug known now seperated
Treatments
- Acupressure Not Working
- Chiropractic Adjustment Not Working
- made it worse
- Cymbalta Not Working
- Heat Somewhat Helpful
- Hydrocodone Somewhat Helpful
- if u like feeling like a zombie
- Marijuana Somewhat Helpful
- still hurts but mentally makes me temporairily forget
- Methadone Not Working
- gave it bake to doc
- Morphine Not Working
- zombie
- Naproxen Not Working
- joke
- Nerve Blocks Not Working
- nerves more ways then one shot
- Neurontin Somewhat Helpful
- at nite all it does is make me tired
- Oxycodone Somewhat Helpful
- calms it for a while but cant fuction right
- Physical Therapy Not Working
- made it worse
- TENS Somewhat Helpful
- i use it sometimes but when i stop the pain is worse
Open Separation Anxiety
after 10 years of marriage i am finding myself alone takes all my energy just to convince myself to move always depressed and i feel like i'm going to die i cant breath i'm afraid never was alone before
Treatments
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- as long as it doesnt bring up memories
- Pets Not Working
- i am having trouble taking care of me
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- their answers to all is meds yuck
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depressioni was said to be bi-polar have been fighting mood swings and depression most of my adult life due to crap im really in the deep
Treatments
Open Infidelity
I AM A VICTOM OF MY HUS. AFFAIRS AND NEVER COULD GET AN ANSWER ..WHY WHAT DID I DO WRONG OR NOT GOOD ENOUGH STILL CANT FIND PEACE
Treatments
- Couples Counseling Not Working
- HE WOULDNT GO
- Divorce Considering
- I ASKED HIM TO LEAVE [NOT THAT I REALLY WANTED HIM TO] BUT I CANT STAND STILL BEING MADE A FOOL OF
- Forgiveness Not Working
- I GUESS IM TOO HURT AND CONFUSED TO EVEN SAY FORGIVE
- Leave Considering
- NO WHERE TO RUN AND WONT HIDE
Open Sexual Abuse
TALKING ABOUT THIS ESPECIALLY WHEN OTHERS CAN READ SEEMS WIERD BUT PSYCH. DONT HELP AND NEITHER DOES PUSHING MEMORIES I WAS RAISED IN A SEXUAL ABUSIVE HOUSE GROWN UP I WAS RAPED AND LEFT FOR DEAD MY DAUGHTER WAS ABUSED BY AN EX BROTHER-IN LAW AND NOW MY GRANDAUGHTER WAS ABUSED WHY DIDNT I SEE THE SIGNS WHY COULDNT I HELP THEM
Treatments
- Art Not Working
- USUALLY BAD PIX FROM ALL OF US
- Group Therapy Not Working
- HASNT WORKED FOR ANY OF US
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- DEPENDS SOMETIMES LYRICS BRING BACK BAD MEMORIES
- Talking Too Soon to Tell
- \"The Courage To Heal\" Working / Worked
Open Stress Management
husband abandoned us leaving me on a very limited income and partly disabled holding all the bills and things he put on property that i am now responsable for getting rid of due to no permits i am so depressed and anxious i dont know where to turn
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