kharmacreature's Journal

I never come here. I never know what to say. My current boyfriend has forced me to stop cutting and doing drugs outside of alchol at moderation or weed which I don't like anyway. He said that anytime I cut myself that he'll have a new cut on him in the same place and he can't handle pain. I don't know how to deal without a release. We're also into bdsm and he's noticed that I've started to use that as my coping mechanism. I'll ask him to flog,spank,whip me or what not when I need a release. *Sigh* I should probably come here more. IDK. I'm lost. xxxxxx