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Open Codependency

I am a grown woman, well as grown as I can be right now. I have lived with codependency for the majority of my life. It's been so bad that I've cried and begged a person not to leave me. I never knew I was a person outside of a relationship. Now I'm finding truth. It gets better with time alone. Gives me a chance to take care of myself with no one doing it for me.

Treatments

Reading Working / Worked

I recently read It's a breakup not a breakdown. It's a book that tells you that you are a good person outside of a relationship - that you can have a fabulous time by yourself. I recommend it highly.

Talking Somewhat Helpful

It's nice to talk to your closest friends about your fears of being codependent and have them understand and see how and why.

Open Personality Disorders
Type: Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)

I have borderline personality disorder. The black and white thinking is what gets me into trouble. There's no in between. I've noticed that I'm hot and then I'm cold. I can be the person that makes you the happiest or the saddist.

Treatments

Talking Somewhat Helpful

I've been put on many medications and use talk therapy. Talking about it helps me stay grounded and try to stay open to my emotions and what I'm doing to other people.

Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder

This is kind of difficult to say... When I was 10 I watched my nefew (who was 8) hang himself in front of me. Also, I was sexually assaulted by several different people.

Treatments

Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Too Soon to Tell

I'm not yet working with my therapist on this.. but I will be.

Psychotherapy Working / Worked

For me.. it gets better the more I talk about it. I take it outside of my body where the memories are poison.

Seroquel Working / Worked

It's helping me level out.

Talking Working / Worked

Same as psychotherapy

Open Cocaine Addiction & Recovery

I first tried coke in 01 - snorted my way to an eviction. Then back in 2005 ish it was brought back into my life as shooting it up. It's a completely different feeling. I was addicted to shooting it up. I'm good now. I haven't had it in a long time and I don't need it.

Treatments

Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Too Soon to Tell

Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Too Soon to Tell

Open Prescription Drug Abuse

Pills are my drug of choice and are very dangerous around me. My psychiatrist knows about my drug abuse but trusts me with my meds. It's weird.

Treatments

Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Too Soon to Tell

Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Too Soon to Tell

Open Alcoholism

I would have never said that I was an alcoholic.. cause I didn't drink that often. What makes me an addict is how I drink it. I would get piss ass drunk to the point where I would black out (just like eating my vicodin) I wouldn't know where I was or who I was with...

Treatments

AA Meetings Too Soon to Tell

I've been going to the meetings September 2007. I want to stand up and say I'm ready but I'm just not sure yet.

Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Considering

Open Prolactinoma

I learned several months ago that I have hyperprolactinemia with a micro adanoma. This has stopped me from having a menstral cycle since last year. I'm on Bromocryptine in the hopes to jump start my body.

Open Back Pain

I have chronic back pain/fibromyalgia. Some days I can do anything then others I can barely make it out of bed. Moisture in the air causes it to act up. So does the weather. I was taking 20 mg of vicodin 3x a day, but was kicked out of my pain specialist for non appearance. Crap! The non appearances were from memory problems, something I've had for a while now.

Treatments

Bedrest Somewhat Helpful

Sometimes it's all I can manage to do.

Cortisone (Injection) Working / Worked

I had injections several months ago and they have helped my back in an amazing way.

Flexeril Working / Worked

It's good for when those muscles start acting up.

Hydrocodone Working / Worked

Norco is a wonderful drug for my back pain.

Ibuprofen Somewhat Helpful

It only helps a little - but increasingly so when I take Norco.

Stretching Working / Worked

Helps alot

TENS Working / Worked

I love the tens unit - it's amazing!

Open Fibromyalgia

I'm 27 and have been diagnosed with fibromyalgia for several years now. I question if they dianosed me just because they didn't know what else to dianosed with. Who knows?

Treatments

Cyclobenzaprine Working / Worked

it helps a bit

Heat Working / Worked

works sometimes

Neurontin Not Working

didn't do anything for me

TENS Working / Worked

i love the tens units

Hydrocodone Working / Worked

this helps immensely

Open GERD & Heartburn

I have acid reflux disease and take nexium. I recently had an endoscopy w/ biopsy to see how my esophagus and stomach are doing.

Treatments

Nexium Somewhat Helpful

worked for a little while now my symptoms are worse - they just upped my dosage

Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depression

In my teenage and early adult years I was drastically depressed. I was put on every medication known to man but finally I found the right meds for me in 2007. I'm much better!

Treatments

Celexa Not Working

same thing with cymbalta - i wanted to peel off my flesh

Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Somewhat Helpful

It would have worked better had I stayed with one therapist to actually practice it. Now I practice buddhism because it's similar to CBT.

Cymbalta Not Working

i wanted to scrape my skin off my bones - it made me insane

Effexor Not Working

didn't work

Geodon Somewhat Helpful

It was okay for a while

Lexapro Not Working

didn't work

Meditation Working / Worked

I need to do more of it

Paxil Not Working

I wanted to kill myself on paxil

Positive Thinking Working / Worked

When I can actually muster up the happiness.. it works out beautifully

Prozac Working / Worked

worked for a little while as a teen..but I grew out of it I suppose

Psychotherapy Working / Worked

half and half - I don't like my therapist right now

Seroquel Working / Worked

Is working

Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked

friends are great

Trazodone Not Working

Didn't work

Wellbutrin Not Working

didn't work for me

Writing Working / Worked

helps A LOT

Zoloft Not Working

slept all the time

Open Sexual Abuse

I hope not to be graphic... but some school boys would mess with me on the back of the school bus and the bus driver wouldn't do anything about it. They just used their hands and then had one of their girlfriends to slap me consistently in the face and told me I'd better not tell anyone. So for a very long time and still to this day, I didn't and I don't. Guess I am here though.

Treatments

Leave Working / Worked

We moved back to the town I was born in and got away from that awful place.

Open ADHD / ADD

I've been ADD for as long as I can remember..only now I'm getting help for it. Yay!

Treatments

Adderall Too Soon to Tell

Just started taking Adderall XR - as long as I don't abuse it, I should be fine.

Open Chronic Pain

I have fibromyalgia. Which is basically a pain disorder. I am in constant pain and muscle spasms. Mostly all in my back and now in my knees. ouch!

Treatments

Heat Working / Worked

i feel much better after heat therapy

Hydrocodone Working / Worked

if i don't abuse this drug.. it does wonders for the pain

TENS Working / Worked

I'd do this everyday if I had a TENS unit at home.

Open Diets & Weight Maintenance

I'm 5'0" and weigh at 185 lbs currently - I'm looking to lose at least 55 lbs - which will put me around 137 or something. I want to lose all 85 of it but that's my ED mentality. I'm on a low fat low carb diet and will be taking alli to help with digestion and fats. I'm also trying to go to the gym.

Treatments

Alli Somewhat Helpful

Started my diet March 6th and have lost 8 lbs thus far.

Eating Healthier Foods Too Soon to Tell

Working on it.

Eat Less Too Soon to Tell

Definitely eating less