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I have never slept this much in my life. Fourteen hours last night and twelve the night before. I still feel tired. My …
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Well its been awhile since I wrote and a lot has happen. We last until the 1st we got our money and we spent our money. Bills, groceries and it went fast and I was exhausted. I try to make up in class what I could but I was failing. I was tired and going to meetings and PT. My van went in to the shop on the 6th and Joey's truck was sick so we got it fix we had to drive Anthony's truck. We had to come up with money to pay Joey's truck. I forgot to pay bills last month and we double up this month. How in the world I did that well I don't know. Its so stupid its beyound words. I screw up and the family pays for it. Dustin came down for a weekend and stay and went hunting he enjoys going hunting with Ralph.We short of vehicles around here. Rhonda gave us money for the month and then yesterday on the 12th she gave us more because she heard us discuss that we was behind in bills.So her helping was nice. Anthony needed money for groceries and other household needs so i gave him part of what Rhonda gave me.I'm trying to stop drinking so much mountain dew but its not working because I WANT MOUNTAIN DEW! I'm having withdraws can you tell. I'm having lots of trouble in school and have to take one class over. Mom is in a RV park playing host for the two weeks then she is going by contract working with TVA til April she will make good money.Ralph has had good days and bad. Rhonda has had her share of bad days. Joey went to family night by himself since mom couldn't go and he actually talk. Joey is driving me to PT and he's working out in gym. Mom bought him membership last month and he's been working out and he sits and read in the Atrium while i'm in meeting unless its family night. I wish I had my van........... My van was using a quart of oil a day so it was time to get it fix. Our dog died monday night she had been with us for 13 years her name was midnight. 
The boys grew up with her. She was a stray. About 2 years old when she came to the house and the boys took up with her and we couldn't say no. She was a good dog other then having a lot of pups until we could afford surgery for her. We didn't have a lot of money so it took some time. The boys did enjoy the pups though lol. The dogs do take up some money but the boys like the dogs. Next month we should have extra since we wont be paying double payments. Sounds good to me. I'm so exhausted for some reason I can't get my stuff together. I have no energy. I pretend when I have to but when I'm home alone it hits me I feel ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I have the energy when I 'm at PT because I have to. why I don't know. But right now I could go take a nap. Oh well soon it will be time to go. I need to get started. Ralph's truck needs work on, Joey's truck needs some work on. Joey's money will be in soon I hope. We going to have a thanksgiving dinner here at the house so I got to get my shit together. We having company some from group coming and they can't see my room like it is. so guess what get your shit together Robin my desk is almost clean haha.I WANT MOUNTAIN DEW! UGHHHHHH!!!!!!! Well I get off here nothing else really happen. other then my doggie die I fail my class and I feel a failure. I'm exhausted all they time and I wish I could have some days off but I have another class have thanksgiving coming up and have to show up.Thanks for listening and love ya all. Have a pain free day and God bless you.
Robin
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OK, take a deep breath...and know that this too shall pass. It sounds like you got too much going on. I do understand the pressure that comes with finances and especially broke down vehicles. I thought that only happened to me. LOL! Sometimes all you can do is trust in God even when you mess up. Let me ask you something? Does it help to worry about it? If you are worrying are you trusting God? I am also speaking to myself here. When I become overwhelmed or worried I know that the only person who can calm those fears is Jesus so I take it to Him. I believe he will calm those fears if you spend time with him and trust him with those fears enough to give him your worries.
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Oh Robin, sometimes we just cave in, don't feel like a failure. I am sorry to hear about your little friend passing away. I lost one some years ago and boy, I still miss him! Although I love our new dog she is so different. But you have had a lot going on in the month and I have to congratulating you on doing so well! Yep that saying when it rains it pours, sure manifests itself in our lives from time to time. I hat car trouble! Please don't hyperventilate during this mess. Try to get your studies back on track. You are a strong woman!
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Sounds like your life is full of stressors. Sure hope you find the time to relax. I'm so sorry about your doggie. I know how much that can hurt. I've had to put two of my doggies to sleep. Hugssssssssss
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Hey Robin, wow, a lot keeping you busy mentally and physically. I can certainly sympathize/empathize, my bills have been procreating behind my back and then the little buggers pop out...surprise !! So sorry about your family pet, it sounds like that dog gave as good as she got, I heard a smile through the sad. I had mine for 14 yrs. She went so quick and for that I was thankful. I have a hug that is still good. It came in a soft breeze color and brought comfort and the space to breath deep. My hug came from Jesus and his Father and they said group hugs were the best.
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Hey Robin you have a lot of stuff going on so don't feel bad about the class. You can always take it over again. No one is perfect. I failed a class or two when I was in school so I can understand how it makes you feel like a failure and how it makes you feel so stupid. But you are not, you are just human.
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Wow, you are busy. Slow down and strive to take care of yourself. I have failed a couple of classes in college, but don't let it get you down, you can still retake them and get a better GPA. You are only human, but not stupid. Stay positive, and I am here if you ever need to vent. Love ya, eklord
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Keep your chin up!!! I am so sorry about your dog! Losing a pet is always so sad and depressing. It is not a disgrace to fail in anything. At least you gave it your best effort....and like you said......you can take it again! You will learn more the second time around. I used to really stress out with school. Getting good grades never came easy to me so I can understand how you are feeling........just keep at it and keep doing your PT and your meetings.......those are number one, then comes school and of course family is first. You have your priorities straight, I don't know why I am saying this but I want to encourage you!!!! Hang in there and don't get too down on yourself. Just keep on keeping on!!!! Keep on truckin as the saying goes. Hugs and have a better day today!!!!!!
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Your in my prayers. Hope things calm down for you soon. Just try to relax and remember everything will be ok.
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Hi Robin, Life can get really hard at times but you are not a failure. You have alot to deal with and like you said, your tired and everything seems worse when you are. Take care of you, rest when you can.
I'm so sorry your dog died. We get so attached to our pets, they are members of our family and we morn for them as well.
Take care my friend,
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