TennesseeKidd's Journal

Hi All

Well I'm still going crazy without my computer and I 'm wanting to watch football tonight and I have school also. Sunday Ralph was sick so I took dustin home and we got hamburger for 1.58 lb at the store so we had meat loaf and meat balls for supper with fixings. Ralph and Rhonda also went to the store and also went to get more hamburger to put up. I had school so I ate downstairs and listen to school then Rhonda from meeting called and I talk to her so I didn't get much school lol. I did get to watch football with alex fussing. Tuesday was the day to go to PT sort of Gym with Joey. It was also family day at aftercare. So mom came up at 3p.m. anthony needed money for brakes on nikki's car and mom gave him money thank God again for mom's.We left to go to gym and mom went to lowe's while we went to gym joey did good at gym and doug help out some with it and so did one of the guys working at the gym. The gym and PT is in the same building. Mom came to the gym and we was about ready to go. Jon help me with one exercise then we left to go to aftercare. We got something to drink and went to group. We had a interesting group. Lori was the therapist helping out and she is okay but I don't know her enough to like her or not like her. Sometimes she seems okay and sometime she seems like a bitch sorry but thats the truth. There is others that would agree with me. So after group we got together with friends and got something to eat. Mom brought us supper and I'm happy to and bless to have a good mom. We went home and then mom went home. I had to pay for 3 months of gym for Joey and I hadn't plan on paying the full amount so mom gave me some money to cover it. It only cost 72 dollars for 3 months so thats 24 dollars  a month he gets a discount because i was a patient so that helps out a lot. I only did 3 months because he may be in Alaska in January. They are suppose to call him in two weeks to a month. Joey email the va guy at his school and his va papers didn't go through the mail so now it will be January before we get any money for school. Shit shit shit. sorry but I had to get that out. Well tuesday I was tired and Wednesday I couldn't get nothing done. I had a guy calling me trying to get the house refinance and I try to find papers and try to fax papers and it just wasn't getting done. I just didn't have the energy.I call dustin and ask him to ask his father if I could pick him up to stay the weekend tomorrow while we are in Maryville instead of going to maryville on Friday. His father agree so that work out. Ralph had a headache all day on wednesday. I try exercises on wednesday morning but just didn't have no energy. I was kinda of not looking forward to PT on thursday because I was tired but then going to bed at 3am and getting up early don't help. So I did try to get my homework done on wed and then the computer went down and had to restart and lost everything and had to do all over again. So got fed up went to bed and even though it was late I did it thursday morning and then took a shower call the guy about the refinance and then went over papers with him and then it was time  to go to Gym. Joey was very talkative about the predential thingy thing. He talk all the way to gym and he didn't forget his towel this time because he sweat alot lol. Gym was good and doug help with one of the weights with joey about how to use it and do it slow i found out becuase he made a comment later to him about him teaching me to do the exercise slow. haha. He teaches do it slow. Before gym we pick up dustin and we found out justin wanted to come to so they stayed in the van while we were in the gym. Then we went to the hospital for my meeting. I told the boys to eat a good supper because I didn't have the money to buy them supper at the hospital but I did buy them drinks then they could get refills. So I went to group and my friend tease me about cops they saw downstairs cuffing the kids and then when we went down we tease the kids about the cop and they really believe us  lol. So then we went home and chill. I finally felt some better and then got the paperwork together and justing help me scan and fax the papers to the loan company but the fax machine wasn't working right and there were 34 sheets so it took awhile to fax.Finally at 1am i was done and i went to bed real tired and not feeling good. At 10 I was awake by hearing joey saying that his va didn't get mail and it will be january for the money. shit shit shit shit I apologize but i can't say worse lol. So i got up did my meds and my exercises when the boys got up. Justin slept in the floor and dustin on the couch. I did call the guy about the paper work and he's working on it. Anthony had to fax something then Rhonda had to fax something then I had to fax something. I went to find my paperwork haha it took forever. I then help rhonda fax her stuff the phone number was wrong and then I fix it and then I fax my paper work so I then could write in here. So now to save money and gas I hope dustin dad will let me bring dustin home on tuesday. dustin dad got a lawyer trying to get custody and trying to the mom in jail for leaving dustin. His mom called me yesterday and I didn't know what to say and felt like I was put in the middle but I felt bad for the kids. I love the boys like they were my own and they love me so what can i do. Justin girlfriend lost her baby her mom got out of jail and knock her down the stairs. Which that sucks because she's not  back in jail. So for today I'm resting and leaving it to God. So now the serenity prayer. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference Amen Amen Amen. and please God help me not play tug of war and leave it to you. Hope you all have a pain free day and love you all. and one more thing God thanks for you my family friends and DS. Amen.

Robin

Robin