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July 5, 2009 1:29pm
Don't figure anyone will read this and guess I don't care -- have no one to explain this insight to who would understand or care, guess …
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OrphanAnnie
1:02pm, July 19, 2009
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About Me
OrphanAnnie
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About Me
Have suffered from depression, anxiety, avoidant personality disorder, and attention deficit disorder since childhood, also had to deal with my older sister's schizophrenia. No husband, children, or other family anymore but still hanging in there. Now dealing also with diabetes. The AVP makes me afraid of people but in the last few years I've really worked on that and made a lot of progress.
Have suffered from depression, anxiety, avoidant personality disorder, and attention deficit disorder since childhood, also had to deal with my older sister's schizophrenia. No husband, children, or other family anymore but still hanging in there. Now dealing also with diabetes. The AVP makes me afraid of people but in the last few years I've really worked on that and made a lot of progress.
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Interests
I love reading, computers, and science, and used to love boating and scuba diving (tho I can no longer do those). I also like spooky movies, detective shows, and live music when I'm lucky enough to hear any. I especially like Dilbert, as I "live" in a cubicle myself -- LOL! I also love discussing/debating just about anything, as long as no one takes the discussions personally; I have a great respect for others' right to their own beliefs. And I LOVE jokes, even tho I don't tell them well....
I love reading, computers, and science, and used to love boating and scuba diving (tho I can no longer
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Journal
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I still have a job....
January 14, 2009 6:11pm
Well, the axe has finally fallen at work. The good news is that I still have a job, the bad news is that they're moving me from I.T. back …
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Christmas update -- argh!
December 25, 2008 6:48pm
Just got back from lunch with my abusive old lady. I know that she likes me, and at the same time I know she considers me ill-educated …
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Back, and better
December 25, 2008 10:03am
Miscellany:
Back after nearly a month of isolation while my new meds decided what they are going to do with me (so to speak). The good …
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Med changes -- fun (not)
December 8, 2008 7:16pm
Was getting desperate about money -- expenses less in this apartment, not eating out more than before, but always broke. Decided to change all …
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I got to laughing when I saw you "Happy Hurricane Season" post. I know, you had put that up there a while ago, but I just saw it. Lovebug season just passed for you guys down there, too, didn't it?
I used to live in St. Pete. I miss Florida.
Don't miss the bugs, though! They scared me.
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Good thoughts for you and your precious kitty! She sure is beautiful! (I don't remember if I told you, but I have 10 rescues of my own, I just love cats)
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not true that you missed it cause I had to look awhile before ZI found it for my fiancee
it's just deeper in the list-
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Prayer
did I hear ya say there's no ADULT group, yes there is.
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I commented on your journal...check this out...
http://www.adhdrelief.com/famous.html
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Goals
Progress
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Goal End Date is Jul 4, 08 492 days ago.Fasting Glucose(Diabetes)201 -
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Close Anxiety
Generalized anxiety disorder, also avoidant personality disorder (scared of people). Also depression (DUH!), plus some ADD for variety.
Treatments
- BuSpar Not Working
- Didn't work -- also was allergic.
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- Never enough by itself, but when the drugs are working this can help.
- Tranxene Working / Worked
- Only thing that works for me so far, but a benzodiazepine so it's addictive; have to be careful.
- Xanax Working / Worked
- Helped but not nearly enough, and it was sedating.
- Zoloft Not Working
- Took for years for depression but made anxiety worse.
- Cymbalta Working / Worked
- This was the most disastrous drug I've ever taken. It did make me way less less anxious but much more depressed. Re: diabetes, it reduced appetite, reduced swelling in feet & reduced foot pain. But my 1st dose was on Thurs. night, on Fri. I had to go home from work at 10 am. I had every side effect in the handout for a month in spades; when they went away I was left with sleeping 18 hours a day and flattened affect. Be careful!
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depression56, no family, few friends. Have anxiety issues as well and fear people but can't stand the loneliness. Depressed all my life. Work with computers in a law firm, luckily they're pretty tolerant.
Treatments
- Elavil Not Working
- Took years ago, did nothing.
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- Tried this for 40 years before deciding on suicide. Luckily I didn't do it!
- Prozac Working / Worked
- Miracle drug for me, but I was allergic to it and had to stop.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Helped me cope with the depression, but didn't stop the depression itself.
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- Made me so anxious I couldn't leave the house.
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- Worked fairly well for years, till I got older -- eventually stopped due to elevated heart rate.
- Cymbalta Not Working
- Lexapro Too Soon to Tell
- Making me groggy, dizzy & lethargic, after only one and a half pills. Will go down to a quarter pill (2.5 mg) per day and see if I can tolerate that.
Open ADHD / ADD
Have had ADHD all my life but not diagnosed until about 45 y/o. Took Ritalin but eventually had to stop -- elevated heart rate. Working in a law firm (heavily structured but stressful) helped me develop coping skills & the book Driven to Distraction helped me lose some of the guilt. Do wish I could stop absent-mindedly putting odd things in the fridge, tho; it's embarrassing.... ;)))
Treatments
- Research Working / Worked
- Helped tremendously, especially the book Driven to Distraction, recommended to me by my psychiatrist.
- Ritalin Working / Worked
- Helped somewhat but very fatiguing. Ultimately had to quit due to elevated heart rate (the older I got the higher it went).
- Strattera Working / Worked
- AMAZING drug but side effect couldn't be tolerated -- heart rate shot thru the ceiling. Wish I thought that clearly all the time!
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- A TOTAL DISASTER -- sent my anxiety thru the roof. Had to quit after 3 days.
Open Shyness
Actually, have Avoidant Personality Disorder -- basically, a fear that people will disapprove of me or dislike me. Can handle strangers but terrified around people whose opinion matters. Middle-aged and still fighting it daily.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Gave me coping skills but made no difference to the root problem itself.
- Self-help Working / Worked
- Since I have a specific disorder, researching it has helped me know what I'm dealing with.
- Socializing Working / Worked
- About a year ago started forcing myself to have lunch with someone at least twice a week. Hard at first, now I find it really, really helps. Keep trying to push that envelope a little at a time.
- Tranxene Working / Worked
- Also have an anxiety disorder made worse by SSRIs, and when I get anxious I get more withdrawn. Tranxene was only tranquilizer that also helped diminish my fear of people -- not a listed effect, but I'm not complaining. Made it possible for me to start socializing.
Open Diabetes Type 2
Treatments
- Actos Not Working
- Didn't work and produced anxiety as well
- Amaryl Not Working
- Didn't work & produced anxiety as well
- Avandia Not Working
- Again, didn't work and produced anxiety
- Dietary Modification Working / Worked
- Well, it works when I do it!
- Eating Healthier Foods Working / Worked
- Helped a lot (generally eating healthier foods, cutting out soda, etc.)
- Glipizide Working / Worked
- Really made a difference -- if I watch my diet, with this I can have some normal BGs.
- Metformin Not Working
- GHASTLY side effects -- bowel incontinence! And didn't even help my BG.
- Cymbalta Working / Worked
Open Loneliness
Parents died when I was in my 20s; I've been married twice, divorced last in my 30s w/no kids; sister died years ago, no other family. I'm afraid of people + have ADD so have trouble making friends. Last Sept. my oldest friend died, & my other old friend died Feb. I've worked same place 20 yrs, have lots of work friends but no one to see outside work. Sometimes I think no one would know if I just vanished. It's hard to make friends at my age (57).
