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May 25, 2009 10:06pm
hey well dunno if any of u missed me but been on off for the last year, i been though quite a journy, ive been seeing a psyolgist, the one i was put …
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JFeather
6:25pm, May 25, 2009
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About Me
JFeather
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About Me
18yr old girl using everythign she can to hide behind, and to stop the pain. La La Laa La Laaa La La!, im singing. lol.
18yr old girl using everythign she can to hide behind, and to stop the pain. La La Laa La Laaa La La!, im singing. lol.
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Interests
reading, writing, dancing, music, friends, movies, philosophy, ethical religon, everything, nothing & RANDOMNESS.
reading, writing, dancing, music, friends, movies, philosophy, ethical religon, everything, nothing &
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Journal
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Journal Entry for November 28, 2008
November 28, 2008 6:36pm
i dunno why but ive been more like u used to b,
b4 i was on anything,
cant do anything with myself cus i just end up feeling worse, …
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Journal Entry for November 27, 2008
November 27, 2008 12:04pm
HIHI
its been a while thought i should do a catch up,
well, i lost my job, but trying very hard to find annother, and geting closer to geting my …
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Journal Entry for October 4, 2008
October 4, 2008 7:50pm
i want to do it again,
i cant cope,
im hurting everyone i love,
and i cant get help,
the drs wont help me
they say theres nothing wron with me,
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Journal Entry for September 21, 2008
September 21, 2008 3:52pm
55 days, and i couldnt make it any more, i cut the worse that ive ever done, last night, the thing is though that the urge wasnt even that bad, …
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Self-Injury
i started pulling my hair out and biteing years ago and it's always been on/off, but about a year ago i started cutting and since august it's bcome a way of life, and everytime i stop i find otherways to hurt myself. ive resently given all my blades to my friend to destory for me, but im finding it incredably hard to cope with out them. YEAH that didnt work ive got then bk ages ago and have been taken into hospital as emergency suicde rice a few times
Treatments
- Pets Somewhat Helpful
- he gives me a reson to stay in a safe state of mind, and a reason to look out for
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- gotta wate till march/april for my counceling to start
- Red Marker Not Working
- hell no, i just end up wanting to cut where ther lines are
- Rubber Bands Somewhat Helpful
- helped in the first instant but then used them to hurt my self in other ways, i stoped using them for a while aand now they seem to b working a little better than before.
- Squeezing Ice Somewhat Helpful
- Talking Not Working
- talking to just one close friend can do the world of good, as long as they listen and you dont expect too much off them
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- helps to clear the mind about everything, i keep a dairy called FREDDIE and the jurnal on this and i also write stories that seem to reflect my satte of mind, (unintencional)
- Celexa Working / Worked
Close Sexual Abuse
i was abused by my brother, i cant remember exactly what he did, i've blocked it out but i know, where, when, and a majority of it but i dont know how far it whent, & it's driving me crazy, i need to know what happened or remeber nothing at all, having only a glimce is torture. god i miss those days, i rember alot more now, and i dont like it.
Treatments
- Leave Too Soon to Tell
- plan to move to england as soon is i turn 18 with my best friend hopeing new seroundingds will help me mov on, at the mo he still lives in the same house as me.
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- takes my mind off it for a bit.
- Pets Somewhat Helpful
- thinking that this little thing loves me so much gives a reasurence that i'm not worthless, and do mean alot to at lest one animal in the world.
- Talking Working / Worked
- talking to people and opening up is hard for me but it helps so much when im able to do so
- Writing Working / Worked
- i tend to write alot of fiction, mostly on abuse, it sorts out the questions that i have unanswered
- \"The Courage To Heal\" Too Soon to Tell
Open Trichotillomania (Hair Pulling)
Type: Trichotillomaniai started pulling after i was abused by my brother and its always been on off
Open Eating Disorders
ive resently been noticing the amount of food that i eat and been makeing myself sick alot since august, and i think im reliying too much on this, and that its becoming a way of life,ive recently found out a close friend of mine has anorxia, shes trying to recover and shes doing pritty good, adn we're helping each other though it
Treatments
- Outpatient Treatment Program Not Working
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
Open Teen Sexuality
JFeather hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Rape
my brother raped me when i was nine, ive only just remebered this bit, i knew that he abused me but i wasnt able to remeber it all untill 25/11/'07
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- my counceler treated me like a kid, and i couldnt stand seeing it though with her
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Writing Working / Worked
- my journal and diary are about the only things that keep me sain at the moment
Open Sudden Infant Death Syndrome (SIDS)
: I have lost a child to SIDSmy older brother Luke died at three weeks from cot death, i was born to fill my parents grief, my other brother seems to resent me as he see me as a relpacement. the family doesnt seem to have dealt with it very well.
Open Pre-menstrual Syndrome (PMS)
i have been discribed by meany as and i quote, a "psycho bitch" when im hormonal because of PMS
Open Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS)
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
- High Fiber Diet Not Working
- made it worst
- Peppermint Not Working
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
Treatments
- Leave Too Soon to Tell
- gonna move out when i finnish school
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- on a wwaiting list to see a counseler
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- can never get everything out
Open Bisexuality
well ive been atracted to girls for a long time, but i dont really know how i feel about that, and ive not talk to anyone about this, well i did once but now able to adit it to myself, and im not ashamed anymore.
Open Female Sexual Issues
JFeather hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Depression
ok yea the drs say im not depresed but trying to kill urself isnt really the best way of saying u have no aspects of it,
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Not Working
- Meditation Not Working
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- Writing Not Working
- Celexa Working / Worked
Open Incest Survivors
yea, see my sexual abuse profile.
