Amy E's Journal

Things have been going pretty well. I am doing better. I've made some changes that I think have made a big difference - joining a new church and working at our business. Also, the trip to Florida and meeting with my father. That may be the biggest positive change. It never mattered to me what his reacion to me was. I just wasn't happy with my part in our not talking. I never wanted that, but it became necessary. And my reaching out to him and meeting with him allowed me to be in control of my part of our relationship. If I never speak to him again, and that is entirely possible, I am happy with our meeting in April. I'm sure that at this point, he has a completely different spin on our meeting, and is likely mad at me because I didn't bring my sons and wouldn't meet with his wife. That's okay. I expect it. I know that what I did was good. He can recreate it differently, but I know that I can look myself in the mirror and be happy with myself.

I see the psychiatrist next week. I'd like to come off of the medication that I'm on. I have gained weight on it. It's so hard to control my eating. I feel like I want to eat all of the time. I think that's from the medicine. He may not agree right now, but we'll see.