Amy E's Journal

Okay, I called my father tonight. My plan was to ask him to meet me when we are in Florida. I can't say that it went very well. He asked why he would meet with just me, that he should see his grandkids. He wanted to know why I've been mad at him for the past 4 years. He's tried to contact me and I haven't responded, and I am HIS daughter. I let him say what he had to say, and simply said that I would like to meet with him just one on one, and we'll see what happens. He was pissed and said that he would think about it and call me. I said that if he didn't want to, then that's fine. I was trying to let him say what he wants and not let him rattle me. I didn't waver one what I'm willing to do. By the end of the conversation he agreed to meet me on my terms. I'm not very confident that the meeting will go very well. He's going to want to rehash shit, and I'm not willing to do that. I'm firm in where I stand and what I've done. I wouldn't change any of it. He, however, doesn't recall much of his part in any of this. He's mad that I've been angry with him for 4 years. He forgets what his part is. That's the struggle for me, because I dont' want to sit and argue with him. All I can do is maybe say that, that he isn't accounting for his part. If he can't meet with me and be in that moment with me, then it won't work. I'll need to get up and leave if he does some of what he did tonight. He has two weeks to decide how he's going to handle himself when we meet. Tonight I know I got some of the anger that he has built up, so we'll see if he can get past any of it, or if he wants to continue to get pissed at me.