Amy E's Journal

I'm finding the church class very valuable. I said something last night in it that surprised me. I actually wowed a couple of people. I can't really talk about what anyone else says in the class, but I can say what I say. I was comparing the men who flew the planes on 911 to Jesus. The men who flew the planes were sure they were right. They totally committed and convicted to the idea that what they were doing was God's plan, and that they were right. We had learned that Jesus didn't have all of the answers. He wasn't sure what he was doing was what God wanted him to do. I said that I often feel like I have missed the mark. I must have not understood what God wanted me to do. I became a PT and now can't practice. I said that maybe it's okay to question and not be sure. If you aren't asking questions and think you know all of the answers, then you could be flying one of the planes.

I took my son to basketball evauations last night. He ended up in a group and playing 3 on 3 with a boy in our neighborhood. It's the son of the family who hates everyone else in the neighborhood. They don't speak to us  and almost everyone else. After they were done playing, and they played really well, I complimented the boy. He smiled at me and said thanks. I repeated the compliment to the father, and he didn't acknowledge that I had spoken. We can't understand why they are teaching such hatred in that house, but they won't stop us from being who we are. All of the rest of us in the neighborhood are amazed at how ridiculous they are being, and down right rude.

I have heavy heart today. My h's aunt died today. She was 60 years old, has a new baby grandchild. She died of a heart attack, but had been sick for a very long time. She was one person that I related well with in his family. She was married to my h's uncle, so she was a little bit removed from the family, and was very kind to me always. Her name was Cindy. Pray for Cindy today.