79pounds's Journal

the sewer pump is ON again across the street and its 1:54 a.m.  just got back from k's a bit ago.  spent the evening drinking cocktails and eating double chocolate brownies that were fabulous (i have pms so its okay.  lol.)  along with balanced food of course, and burgars from wendy's, so dietwise i am waaay off.  its drizzling from the bands of ida and very balmy outside.  spoke briefly to ls from up north, but just a conincidence and i'll write it later.  most of the talk is about ly and the horrendous job they did with her obit.  don't want to see her mom right now, as i'd be afraid of giving her a piece of my mind and this isn't the time for that.  but an obit that doesn't reflect much on the life of the person, especially her own daughter...she is waaaay out of line.  and since it is merely a written word its such an easy thing to fix, so why not fix it? 

finally got a bunch of calls on adoptions so hopefully that will go well.  sleepy was supposed to go today, but neither of us wanted to drive in the rain.  moreover, i am treating his ear with animax and ear cleaning solution.  it gooky inside but looks more like a yeast infection than an earmite.  as always all of my limbs hurt from the rain, so much so that working the levers on the windows is a mind over the pain thing.  i have to really focus.  so i guess in addition to panic over cold i will also have a panic over wet weather...its time for hawaii or something.  is hawaii wet or is hawaii perfect?  lol.  the vet lowered the zithromax to every other day and wants the ointment put directly onto the anterior of the eye orbit, even though the directions say not to.  i know vets only have one semester of pharmacology just like medical doctors so i am uneasy doing this,  i asked for eye drops and he said no.  time for more research.  really wish i had my textbooks.

went wandering in the drizzle calling for ubu.  no luck.  i am sickened.  went to the vet with black velvet.  he charges me each visit and in the end it will cost the same as surgery.  and then what, THEN do surgery?  he is treating his eye as an open wound.  it is soooo bad.  the other eye is healing nicely though, he said.  paul thinks he is dying anyway because velvet is weak and is hiding.  i hope not.  what a year this is.

discovered the beatles were considered angels/saviours, like the antidote to the oppressive government to young people in the ussr.  a way to vent/rebel/breathe etc.  they did a documentary on it on pbs and that is why gorbechev including the beatles in his speeches in the 80's was such a HUGE thing.  never knew that.  it was kind of fascinating.  especially since i used to know polish international ballroom dancers in the 90's and some russian diplomats from parties only when i was young and if they did mention the beatles thing, it must have went right passed me.  the beatles records were ILLEGAL in the ussr until the 80's.  what the fuck.

went to see that piece of real estate on the outside that is the type k was looking for.  if it is nice inside it is a find, its half "redone" so its not mortgageable and the price is low, but who knows.  k loves that kind of thing.  since it is so close to the intracoastal it really should have a second or third floor put on, or at least a deck upstairs.  its weird there aren't a bunch of upsidedown houses over there, as there are so many over here and up north on both the intracoastal and by the ocean.  it really is a much better view this way.

Prayer of St. Francis

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace,
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
where there is sadness, joy;

O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood as to understand;
to be loved as to love.

For it is in giving that we receive;
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.