79pounds's Journal

Learn to listen to your inner voice.   Listen to your heart.   It's your connection to God, to the universe, to people, and to yourself.
Melody Beattie
 

heading down to the marina and kind of dreading it because its been cold and windy lately (and still hardly any boats!!). 

had a weird morning socializing with people, it was more like a night would be for me normally.  got up early to take black velvet to the vet.  i didn't bring him home with me last night from k's which was a mistake right there as it would have saved a step.  hit traffic on the way to k's so i had to call the vet and try to reschedule and they didn't have anything for this morning so i had to cancel.  instead, i met j for breakfast at waffle house for waffles with whipped cream and syrup (the best).  yum.  and then went to a multi-family garage sale that a housing development was having.  really pretty over there because its in a lake area, but no great deals at all.  lol.  its funny, everyone has the same stuff pretty much, doesn't matter how nice or how crappy an area is, everyone owns and dumps the same things;  but people alter the price soooo much.  most of their stuff was $5.00 and up and i know other garage sales will have the same thing for $1.00 and less.  lol.  one guy had a 13 inch tv, cleaned up beautifully, but was selling it for $25.00.  wow, even more than a pawn shop.  lol.  even the area by the intracoastal that is normally good, had that kind of thing going on, way over-priced.  maybe its the economy again? 

we stopped by the water and ate boxed sandwiches which were great.   then i stopped by k's to let black velvet out of the carrier, but k was already there and it turns out, the door on the carrier was shut wrong and black velvet was wandering around outside (black velvet is blind right now!!!), so we never would have gotten to the appointment anyway.  rg was also at k's house so we hung out in the den for awhile.  i was tempted to hang out in k's yard and read, because i still can't lounge and read on my deck because that sewerage pump is still on AND was on all last night and it smells and is noisey.  i actually, called the city last night about it.  how gross, pumping all of that stuff into the intracoastal anyway.  can't believe its legal.  and its definitely doing a number on everyone's lungs.  the whole street is choking and feeling ill, and really its all from the sewerage and the gas odor from the machine doing the pumping.  i really miss getting my fill of lounging around outdoors.

had another anxiety attack when i saw a white van parked in our driveway last night.  and then another white pick up truck this morning.  so now i am keeping myself calm by saying to myself this is my last bunch of rescues and i am going to travel after this.  it actually works.  mind over matter. 

i wonder what kind of damage anxiety does to one's heart.  i picked up the newspaper for a different county as well, because i am so angry with animal control locally, that i don't want to live in this county anymore and add to it that sewerage pump and i am ready to just RUN away.  plus the added aggravation of kv never paying what he owes FOR A YEAR!!!!  and then having to clean up all the grease and crap he always leaves in the kitchen.  i lose about 12 hours of my own time doing that morning and night seven days a week from him.  does he COMPREHEND that?  its unreal.  i would never have put up with ANY of this at the other house.  ENOUGH.  there was even grease inside the carriers outside which means instead of pouring grease off the side of the deck he did what?  poured it onto the carriers?  who does that????  or clogging up the toilet with a half a roll of toilet paper shoved in it??? or now i bought two bottles of liquid detergent two weeks ago and now one of them is empty and the other is half empty and he is the only one doing laundry besides me.  what is he doing, DRINKING it?  why is he in it at all?  it should have been enough for a few months  

then drove to the house up north and was surprised by f being here.  i asked him if he has spoken to or seen rm or brt and he had no info, other than the road their church is on.  f is so confused all the time lately and he's started whistling tunes in between conversation when you talk to him???!!!  if that was the way he normally is i wouldn't think anything of it, but its not.  what the hell?  jf was around as always and says tmy and b were whining at someone at the marina about the boat, who knows and that could be why b was acting so weird the other day. 

i think they do, do a pirate boat thing over here for halloween, don't know how it works though.  i wouldn't want to be out there in this cold anyway.  finally ran into isabel, who has been back for a month but i haven't had a chance to see her.  she is in medical billing school, because her job keeps laying off, so she is switching to something more stable.   she says she would have to work up north or for herself for it to actually pay well.  my friend debbi used to do that for her husband, who is a chiropractor and i know she said there was a lot of money in it.  she had wanted to open on her own back then, but needed a business partner because it was becoming too much.  she already had a job in banking.  tna was also around, and she is just the opposite.  she needs to hire people, as incredible as that is, and is going through the usual everyone sucks thing.  its really hard to hire people, and she seemed kind of wiped out from it.  plus everyone is getting sick up here too.  c was also around and claims his company is also hiring again, so who knows?  the internet claims unemployment is UP not down and the worst its been since 1983.  i didn't even know there was a problem in 1983 and i was around then.