79pounds's Journal

if i wrote this last night, i'd have raved k's napalitano sauce on pasta.  except either something in it, or more likely this bug i have is still around inside me because by the time i got home i felt awful.  was up until around 4:30 a.m. with it and then got up right away again because i am worried about ubu, who didn't turn up last night or this morning.

spent the day nursing feeling what i thought was the last of awful, though much improved and catching up on things, like paying bills by phone (which takes a long time anyway, as does on line and makes me wonder if the old way of just sitting writing a check and sending out was just as quick??).  called in the new ad for the cat.  met with cl, who assured me she doesn't want to make trouble (on and on for about ten minutes!!!! she must be bipolar or something).  i told her the vet did the clap test and so did i.  the kitty CAN hear.  (and even if it couldn't if she was any kind of a person it shouldn't matter).  she gave me back the original receipt which is what i need but she still saved something else that i signed...well our lawyer, we sort of have one now for the 501 (i don't have my hopes up though as so far NO ONE has gotten it done who says they think they know how to do it.  and this lawyer also admits she doesn't know how, but thinks she knows someone who does and she does rescue so...).  i was in a good mood by the time i was by cl's because the golf pro called with a zillion ideas for fundraising, she also does rescue.  she also wanted to know if i want the land next to their golf course for sanctuary.  she says it would be perfect.  want it or buy it?  lol.  the price on the property is $600,000.  lol.  

i also realized i am getting anxiety now every time i see a white pick-up or white truck because of the animal control thing.  i can't live like this.  i can't live in fear and that is what this feels like.  it will end up killing me.  just realizing that helped.  i'm starting to sour on being in this area in general just because of what is happening with animal control and the latest assinine neighbor.  (we had a bad neighbor a few years ago, who then got terrorized right back at him by the entire neighborhood on a regular basis, so he moved to north carolina.  good idea.  hell, would also have been a good choice.  lol.)

had an adoption that went perfectly.  these are all from s's batch lately, and every one of her's have lucked out and gone to really great homes for some reason.  it seemed like a perfect match, so i hope it really is, beautiful and pretty kitty.  her five year old just lost a cat (she doesn't know).  the kid was amazing.  speaking in full sentences.  able to quote and imitate from tv and totally fearless and gentle with the kitty.  i told her mother she should put her in commercials, for real.  i used to photograph kids all the time when i was a photographer, kids, families, babies, weddings that whole gig...and they aren't usually as good at following directions etc., and definitely don't quote lines from commercials.  her mother should think about it.  this might be the kid's small window for making big money as all people have a small window like that at some point in a lifetime, its a matter of using it and not being robbed of it when it happens. 

was still feeling chipper when i headed out to k's and wanted to drink a bit.  perhaps not wise since i was so sick the day before.  had a two shot spiced rum and coke and got a good buzz, what a difference a 2 shot or a half and half drink makes over the other way.  lol.  my lips got numb so i knew i was there and it felt great to get that kind of buzz, then wine with dinner, then coffee with liquor.  so i am not sure if it was the dinner or drinking too soon after illness but i messed up because i felt ill after an hour or two.  lol.  so a bit of a relapse over here, or just lack of sleep.  some of which is worry because ubu wasn't around again though i did see a black and white cat trotting down the main road over here and he comes from across the street often lately, wonder if someone is feeding him over there?  not good because of the road even at night.  don't trust it.  but still better than if crazy man next door did something.  i hate that guy.  duane was also in awful spirits picking fights with other cats and giving me anxiety on that as well.  never want to live where anyone is below me again, even if its the property handy guy.  it freaks me out. 

still have a lot to do.  sy is returning the tortipoint because now they are both in the hospital, her as an out patient and he is in for real.  i also had a fosterer back out again as well, so many people are leaving the area, who are getting foreclosed on because of lack of work.  supposedly texas has tons of employment AND cheap real estate?  the other adopter is adopting for her parents, who are healthier than she is.  she is 50 and terminally ill.  she reschedules so much i crossed her out from the book, unless her parents want to adopt directly.  i need to drop off payments and bring the blind cat in to be checked.  the ruptured cornea was sticking out so much last night i couldn't even apply the ointment.  also ALL of the outdoor cats that had any of that illness got better faster and more completely than the indoor ones.  trying to keep track of all of that.  its interesting. 

watched 3 million years of being human or something on pbs.  kind of interesting, there were MANY breeds of bi-peds, which is what they call us (i've always viewed humans the outerspace way, we are 99 percent chimpanzee, so lets be real, humans are merely a breed of chimpanzee.  lol.)  the latest show claims that each breed of bi-ped stayed small- brained like an ordinary bi-ped/chimp for a million years here and a million years there, and then one breed of bi-ped slowly developed a larger brain (just a tad bigger brain every thousand years) because that bi-ped forced itself to adapt to severe climate change or die off, those who did not adapt died off, which is why all the zillion breeds of bi-peds/chimp are gone now.  (the severe climate change started for no known reason and can/will happen again and then humans will adapt/evolve again and start looking a tad different every thousand years again or die off.)   so every thousand years the bi-ped/chimp brain enlarged in order to adapt to all the changes and ultimately became us.  not bad.  lol.  ergo, the reason humans have NOT evolved since becoming homosapien and we look the same now as when we first evolved into homosapien is because the climate stabilized and there was no reason for more change to take place in our brain (why did the FACE also change?  they didn't get into that.  there is a difference.)