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79pounds
Female, 43, FL
"anxious and counting the days dreading animalcontrol.still treating k's sickcats. 3 cats missing! Privacy is themost vital partofbeing alive"
3:44pm Sunday
ANGEL POEM and flipping out Mood
Sunday, June 22, 2008 | A Poem/Artistic story

well feeling shitty isn't going away.  i really need a good night's sleep its that kind of weather.  and until i get the rest of the stuff done before going to court i will continue to feel agitated like this.  i think if i get some work done i will feel better. 

 

i just took off my nail polish and will do a manicure.  then eat veggies.  then look for the kids at the marina as i actually want to hang with them, though i shouldn't i need to print out the law on here so maybe i will be "mature" and not go down there and print out instead.  its too short a period of time to prepare that is the trouble.  and i need guidance.  boy do i prefer support staff or far away and in charge.  this is KILLING ME.  they are so mean i hate them i hate them i hate them.

 

If I had a choice An angel's what I'd be, And everything that happened I'd be there to see, You'd be right there with me To wrap my wings around, Only you would know I'm there For I wouldn't make a sound, I would see ahead of you To help direct your path, I'd always be there with you You'd never have to ask, I'd be there protecting you And keeping you from harm, For nothing is too hard for me With my loving arms, When you have somewhere to go I'll be with you in flight, I'll also be there protecting In the middle of the night, So if I had a choice An angel's what I'd be, I'd be right there beside you Helping you so see.

 

look at this: this is from the book ULTIMATE EVIL but the print out is black and it won't copy so if it interests anybody you have to go to the site.

My trans    The Ultimate Evil:           Mind Control, Satanism,           Assassinations and the Son of Uncle Sam 

               

cript of a talk given by Dave Emory entitled "The Ultimate Evil: Mind Control, Satanism, & the U.S. National Security Establishment". Emory shares the microphone with an unidentified co-host, designated here as CO-HOST.

CO-HOST: ..*The Ultimate Evil*. Subtitled, "An investigation into America's most dangerous Satanic cult". The book is written by Maury Terry, first name M-a-u-r-y. Last name, Terry. And the book is published by... It's a Dolphin book, published by Doubleday & Company. Copyright 1987.

So, Maury Terry's, *The Ultimate Evil*.

DAVE EMORY: Now what this book is about, basically, is, it links many of the brutal serial killers of the last 20 years or so together. The subtitle of *The Ultimate Evil* is called, "An investigation of America's most dangerous Satanic cult,hat we have here we're not even gonna *begin* to be able to do justice to this book. In a nutshell, basically, what they're talking about with *The Ultimate Evil* is the fact that some of the horrible crimes which America has experienced over the last 2 decades or so are not, in fact, the work of "lone nuts" any more than the killing of President Kennedy was the work of a "lone nut". In fact, it appears that occultists -- specifically, Devil worshippers (and as we'll go into later in the broadcast, it appears that Devil worship is merely the *front* for this particular type of activity -- although many of the dupes involved at the operational level probably do *believe* in this kind of thing), but that basically, what we have here is an insidious form of organized crime, one which is *explicitly* Nazi and that touches on some of the occult connections to Nazism. And which appears to have links not only to local police departments and very influential professional people, but quite probably to our own intelligence system as well.

One of the things that we talked about in Radio Free America #5 [CN -- Note that this is *not* the same Radio Free America sponsored by *The Spotlight* and hosted by Tom Valentine. This is a different radio program of the same name.], which is going to be coming up in, on Wednesday, October 28th, on KKUP, 8 to midnight, was the fact that one of the things that our national security establishment has been involved in is the deliberate programming of hypno-killers. People who are particularly described as passive-aggressive personalities are subjected to increasing degrees of visual violence. They're shown films of people being mutilated, and killed in accidents, and things of this type, so that gradually they become de-sensitized to human suffering and bloodshed.

Now, as I say, we can't even *begin* to do credit to this book in the time allotted here. We'll probably go back to it next week and eventually we'll probably have to do an archive show on it. But in a nutshell, it appears that this Satanic cult (and we're gonna talk more about this in a second) is, in effect, an organized crime cabal, and specifically appears to have a mind control function. The people at the operational level *are* apparently practicing Satanists and Devil worshippers... You know, with blood drinking ceremonies, and the black mass, and all that kind of stuff. But it *appears*, as we're gonna look at, that the people controlling this may or may not believe in that -- but they certainly have ulterior motives.

The crimes that this organized crime syndicate is involved in include drug smuggling, murder, kiddie porn, prostitution, the making of "snuff flicks", weapons smuggling, cocaine smuggling from Columbia via Miami, heroin smuggling via Hawaii from Southeast Asia. Obviously, these are things we've looked at in the past, in connection with the intelligence services.

Now in a nutshell, the Son of Sam killings, the .44 killings in New York City, are linked in a hard way with this organized crime cult -- which is what I'm gonna refer to it as. It appears to be, to a considerable measure, an intelligence front as well. In addition, they link the Manson killings to this same group. And they point out that both Manson, *and* David Berkowitz, the man convicted in the Son of Sam killings... Well parts of this group were basically selected as fall guys -- in other words, the really powerful people are being protected -- they were simply run in as the "lone nuts", as the "Lee Harvey Oswalds", or whatever.

Now the cult itself appears to be an offshoot, that involved elements of a number of different occult organizations.

People, we're not impugning the Church of Scientology, nor are we endorsing it. But *elements* of the Scientology organization, in particular, apparently, spin-offs of Scientologists, have generated a cult called "The Process". We're gonna go into what The Process is. And then again, elements of The Process (not necessarily the whole thing, but most of it) have, in turn, hooked up with members of Aleister Crowley's OTO organization. (That was an occult group founded in Germany in 1902. Or actually, the Golden Dawn merged with Crowley's OTO.) Crowley was a so-called "black adept", a person who believed in black magic and participated in it.

My transcript of a talk given by Dave Emory entitled "The Ultimate Evil: Mind Control, Satanism, & the U.S. National Security Establishment". Emory shares the microphone with an unidentified co-host, designated here as CO-HOST.

CO-HOST: ..*The Ultimate Evil*. Subtitled, "An investigation into America's most dangerous Satanic cult". The book is written by Maury Terry, first name M-a-u-r-y. Last name, Terry. And the book is published by... It's a Dolphin book, published by Doubleday & Company. Copyright 1987.

So, Maury Terry's, *The Ultimate Evil*.

DAVE EMORY: Now what this book is about, basically, is, it links many of the brutal serial killers of the last 20 years or so together. The subtitle of *The Ultimate Evil* is called, "An investigation of America's most dangerous Satanic cult, with new evidence linking Charlie Manson and the Son of Sam [a.k.a. "The Son of Uncle Sam"].

In the time that we have here we're not even gonna *begin* to be able to do justice to this book. In a nutshell, basically, what they're talking about with *The Ultimate Evil* is the fact that some of the horrible crimes which America has experienced over the last 2 decades or so are not, in fact, the work of "lone nuts" any more than the killing of President Kennedy was the work of a "lone nut". In fact, it appears that occultists -- specifically, Devil worshippers (and as we'll go into later in the broadcast, it appears that Devil worship is merely the *front* for this particular type of activity -- although many of the dupes involved at the operational level probably do *believe* in this kind of thing), but that basically, what we have here is an insidious form of organized crime, one which is *explicitly* Nazi and that touches on some of the occult connections to Nazism. And which appears to have links not only to local police departments and very influential professional people, but quite probably to our own intelligence system as well.

One of the things that we talked about in Radio Free America #5 [CN -- Note that this is *not* the same Radio Free America sponsored by *The Spotlight* and hosted by Tom Valentine. This is a different radio program of the same name.], which is going to be coming up in, on Wednesday, October 28th, on KKUP, 8 to midnight, was the fact that one of the things that our national security establishment has been involved in is the deliberate programming of hypno-killers. People who are particularly described as passive-aggressive personalities are subjected to increasing degrees of visual violence. They're shown films of people being mutilated, and killed in accidents, and things of this type, so that gradually they become de-sensitized to human suffering and bloodshed.

Now, as I say, we can't even *begin* to do credit to this book in the time allotted here. We'll probably go back to it next week and eventually we'll probably have to do an archive show on it. But in a nutshell, it appears that this Satanic cult (and we're gonna talk more about this in a second) is, in effect, an organized crime cabal, and specifically appears to have a mind control function. The people at the operational level *are* apparently practicing Satanists and Devil worshippers... You know, with blood drinking ceremonies, and the black mass, and all that kind of stuff. But it *appears*, as we're gonna look at, that the people controlling this may or may not believe in that -- but they certainly have ulterior motives.

The crimes that this organized crime syndicate is involved in include drug smuggling, murder, kiddie porn, prostitution, the making of "snuff flicks", weapons smuggling, cocaine smuggling from Columbia via Miami, heroin smuggling via Hawaii from Southeast Asia. Obviously, these are things we've looked at in the past, in connection with the intelligence services.

Now in a nutshell, the Son of Sam killings, the .44 killings in New York City, are linked in a hard way with this organized crime cult -- which is what I'm gonna refer to it as. It appears to be, to a considerable measure, an intelligence front as well. In addition, they link the Manson killings to this same group. And they point out that both Manson, *and* David Berkowitz, the man convicted in the Son of Sam killings... Well parts of this group were basically selected as fall guys -- in other words, the really powerful people are being protected -- they were simply run in as the "lone nuts", as the "Lee Harvey Oswalds", or whatever.

Now the cult itself appears to be an offshoot, that involved elements of a number of different occult organizations.

People, we're not impugning the Church of Scientology, nor are we endorsing it. But *elements* of the Scientology organization, in particular, apparently, spin-offs of Scientologists, have generated a cult called "The Process". We're gonna go into what The Process is. And then again, elements of The Process (not necessarily the whole thing, but most of it) have, in turn, hooked up with members of Aleister Crowley's OTO organization. (That was an occult group founded in Germany in 1902. Or actually, the Golden Dawn merged with Crowley's OTO.) Crowley was a so-called "black adept", a person who believed in black magic and participated in it.

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  1. 79pounds

    oh and i didn't lose weight this month in fact i gained two of the seven back. i also didn't do the sit ups. it also occurred to me that they might come by again and that sickens me as well it all sickens me fucking criminal pieces of shit


    79pounds

  2. 79pounds

    why are people always sick. why are people always dying. i don't remember life being like this...unless i had ptsd real big time or drowned myself inpartying like g does???? is that a better way...party yourself away from it all and ptsd away from it? though i feel healthier no but life really is weighing heavy. gallstones what the hell...at 17????omg


    79pounds

  3. 79pounds

    i hope i don't throw up in court. seek and you shall find. ask and it shall be given. e is looking for pictures and offered a letter stating what was done.


    79pounds

  4. RainyDey

    I heard it once said that the older you get the more you have to leave behind.The harder life gets.
    Sorry about your not sleeping and your stress.I hope court goes well for you and that justice prevails.dont worry about the gained two pounds stress can get to you and effect your weight.when this all over you will go back to losing the weight....


    RainyDey

  5. cypher

    I wish I could take away the stress! It is so hard not to stress when you are in it -- sorry about the weight! I know I am kicking myself for not doing my exercises and not keeping to it -- feel better soon HUGS love, Carolyn


    cypher

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