Life After Mike ...
October 18, 2009 7:08am
To tell you the truth, I didn't know which category to mark this with. It's a little of everything - tragedy, anxious, venting, frustrating, …
roniG4
10:24pm, October 29, 2009
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About Me
roniG4
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About Me
It has been 6 mos, 11 hours and 46 mins since my life was blown to hell by a 44 magnum aimed at my husband's right temple ... I have 2 children (ages 15 and 9). I struggle with bi-polar, PTSD, Graves disease, ADD and chronic neck and back pain.
It has been 6 mos, 11 hours and 46 mins since my life was blown to hell by a 44 magnum aimed at my husband's right temple ... I have 2 children (ages 15 and 9). I struggle with bi-polar, PTSD, Graves disease, ADD and chronic neck and back pain.
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Life SUCKS more with every passing day
June 20, 2009 10:13pm
My life just keeps getting shittier and shittier. My 2 older sisters haven't contacted me since coming back home after Mike's services were …
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The 13th came and went ... alone again
June 14, 2009 11:12pm
Yesterday was the 3 month anniversary of the end of my husband's life, and the beginning of my hell here on earth.
I tried to write …
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Today's Plight
June 10, 2009 9:19pm
I'm doing pretty good today, overall. I am, however, beginning to feel apprehensive about Father's Day. It seems I'm going to be alone. …
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Roni.. I am so sorry things are not getting better yet. Hang in there, the kids need you!! ((HUGS))
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thanks for your prayers
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i am so sorry for your loss. i kind of understand i had a good friend kill herself a few weeks ago. it is very hard to cope with. if you ever need to chat im here. hope all is well
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do you remember John Lennon he was very interesting had a good message about peace for everyone. What kind of music do you listen to?
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Close Bipolar Disorder
I was diagnosed as bi-polar when I was 30. The condition puts a great deal of stress on my husband and children. I have a lot of difficulty talking with them frankly of the condition because they don't really understand. I don't always understand what's going on with me, and I am always afraid. I never know from one day to the next what persona I will be, or how I will treat my loved ones. I just want to feel normal.
Treatments
- Ativan Not Working
- The dosage prescribed didn't help so, we threw that one away too.
- Depakote Not Working
- No longer using due to weight gain and hair loss
- Lamictal Working / Worked
- I feel ok so I guess it's working. My husband says he sees improvement.
- Seroquel Somewhat Helpful
- It worked off and on, so I'm off for now.
- Trileptal Working / Worked
- Worked but caused paresthesias quite a lot (due to lack of appetite) so I had to stop.
- Wellbutrin Not Working
Close Rape
I was raped by 2 ex-boyfriends at age 17 and age 21. The second time resulted in pregnancy which was terminated, causing a host of other related problems.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
I have had numerous encounters that have contributed to my PTSD. The most recent - and by far worst - was witnessing my husband's suicide on March 13, 2009.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Seroquel Somewhat Helpful
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- EMDR Too Soon to Tell
- Only had 3 appts so far informational background and resource gathering. June 30th sooner if cancellation we begin picking the traumas apart
Open Back Pain
I injured my back in 1992, resulting in a double laminectomy at L4-5, L5-S1. I re-injured it in a car accident in 1995, along with sustaining 3 compressed discs in my neck - causing loss to the ladortic (sp?) curve. I had to have a second surgery, single level discectomy in 1999 due to weight gain during pregnancy. I have suffered with chronic pain as a result of these injuries for the past 17 years.
Treatments
- Bedrest Working / Worked
- Chiropractic Adjustment Not Working
- Didn't like it for my back but was great on my neck
- Darvon Working / Worked
- Love it
- Heat Working / Worked
- Sometimes
- Morphine Working / Worked
- Works great when in the hospital
- Naproxen Working / Worked
- Sometimes
- Physical Therapy Working / Worked
- Relaxation Working / Worked
- Stretching Working / Worked
- TENS Working / Worked
- Oxycodone Working / Worked
- Works for small flareups
- Surgery Working / Worked
- My first surgery was successful for 8 years until pregnancy 2nd is still good result 9 years later
Open Families & Friends Affected By Suicide
This is still very fresh and raw for me and my family so I can't say much right now ... My husband killed himself 2 weeks ago today. I had the honor of watching. Now, I can't remember anything else that has happened in the interim- except in the very vaguest form ...
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- Don't know - just starting
- Talking Not Working
- Hopefully - some day
- Writing Too Soon to Tell
- Don't know - still composing
