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Cath58 
I feel like I'm going to scream!! I've been depressed and suffered from anxiety for years now and have slowly but surely alienated myself into a friendless life. Even my lifelong friends have given up on me. I have a wonderful husband. He is my only connection to the outside world where I rarely go. Even our daughter who I used to be really close to is treating me different. Like she doesn't care. Like I am an embarrassment to her. That is breaking my heart. It's not like I can change how I feel. Well maybe I can but it is really scary. And I don't know where to begin. Where does one go to meet people to make friends when you are in your 50's? I am on a pension and so can't get a job. Though my depression has been under control for some time now with medication I feel like I am slipping. I haven't told anyone about this. I just keep it bottled up and I'm going to explode soon. On top of it all I have gained quite a bit of weight being on these medications and I look hideous! I have no energy to exercise. I'm lonely. I MISS MY MOM!!
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Hi
Sorry to hear your feeling like that.
You could always visit a local church, im sure there would be loads of people there who would care for you=)
I don't know if you believe in God or not but im am a Christian and when I'm down God is my only strenghth=)
Just pray, God hears you and cares about you!=)
Hope this helps
Joana
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joanamartins
Hello Cath!
Sorry I haven't been on the web sight lately. I Hope this note finds you in a little better spirit. I totally understand how you are feeling at this time. I am feeling pretty depressed lately too. I know how you feel about missing your mom. I seem to be having the same problem at this time also. My sister came to St. Louis to help me empty my mom's apartment and get it ready to rent. We are both having a real hard time because it was home for the past 55 years. We moved there when I was 5 and I'll be 60 in October. I'm not sleeping well lately and I really have no close friends to speak of. I guess it just comes with the time frame of our life. We were so busy raising our children and keeping up with home and schedules that we didn't have time for anything else. It isn't easy making friends like it was when we were young and in high school. However I think it is possible to gently work our way back into the "getting back out there" phase again. Just remember that it will take you time, at your own comfortable pace, to get back to what you feel comfortable with. I also have a son who is 23yrs old now and he seems to cut me off when I am upset or crying if I am having a bad day and it makes me mad to think I was always there for him when he needed someone for moral support. Now when I am having such a hard and miserable time in my life, he doesn't seem to be around. I've decided that I am just going to take care of my own feelings and pamper myself as best as I can and not worry about anyone but ME! It is all about ME! That's what you should start to think about too.(that's what my sister and I have concluded to. She has a 28yr old son and is going through the same thing) We have taken care of everyone else for so long that we don't know how to put our focus on ourselves. Don't worry so much about trying to make new friends as much as just going out and getting involved in something that you are interested in and do something or go somewhere to get out and be busy, and I have found that there are a LOT of people out there whit a lot of tough times in there life too and they are hurting too. I just start talking to people and I am always surprised at how many people just open up and start talking because they are lonely too. I know this won't be easy, but BE POSITIVE and give it a
try. I figure that I have nothing to loose. I also am on anti-depressants for many years since I have had a long bout with depression and I am going back to saying the serenity prayer each morning to face the day. I just give it up to God and do my best to let go and let Him take care of my day. I hope you will keep looking to the Lord and just "keep on keepin on" as they say, to get to the point that you feel comfortable with. Do some thing that you enjoy,doing it for yourself and just be around people and give yourself a chance to be with other people and I bet you will make acquaintances that just my blossom into a friendship. If it doesn't, just know that you are out there enjoying something for yourself and living each day to the best of your ability. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers and I will do my best to say hi more often. Sincerely, lynne
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