Officially depressed
August 13, 2009 6:06pm
Well I finally I got in to see my new psychiatrist yesterday and learned I am officially depressed. It feels different than other times I've been …
Cath58 
3:40pm, October 17, 2009
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About Me
Cath58
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About Me
I suffer from chronic depression and anxiety and am on a disability. My Mom died August 3rd 2007 and I am having trouble getting over it. Then my father passed away as well. He was the most lovely man you would ever want to meet. Three short months after Mom. It's too much to bear. I have a wonderful daughter but she lives far away (we moved her the month before Mom passed) and I miss her terribly too. I am married to the most wonderful, forgiving man who stands by me thru it all. He truly is the best!
I suffer from chronic depression and anxiety and am on a disability. My Mom died August 3rd 2007 and I am having trouble getting over it. Then my father passed away as well. He was the most lovely man you would ever want to meet. Three short months after Mom. It's too much to bear. I have a wonderful daughter but she lives far away (we moved her the month before Mom passed) and I miss her terribly too. I am married to the most wonderful, forgiving man who stands by me thru it all. He truly is the
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At this point my interests are simply my daughter, a little reading, my computer and just trying to feel better.
At this point my interests are simply my daughter, a little reading, my computer and just trying to feel
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Journal Entry for July 19, 2009
July 19, 2009 3:43pm
I feel like I'm going to scream!! I've been depressed and suffered from anxiety for years now and have slowly but surely alienated myself …
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Christmas
November 28, 2008 2:01am
Tomorrow our nieces come to our house to spend the night with us. We are bringing in all the decorations for the holidays and they are going to help …
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Dad's angel date
November 18, 2008 6:11pm
It is one sad year ago today that my dear Dad passed away. It's been a difficult night and morning. The thing is he died at about 3:30ish …
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headaches again
October 31, 2008 4:38pm
This is over 2 weeks of headaches now. Some days are definitely not as bad as others but they are wearing me down. I for sure don't want to see …
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saw your red face. wanted to send something to briaghtne your day just a bit.
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hang in there. i'm annie8 55 years old my status-depression. seems like i worry constantly over the very things you have already been through. i feel kinda silly as they haven't happened to me yet. it has to get better.
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Thanks for your message you left on motherlessdaughters. It gave me a happy tear.
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Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a ParentOn Aug 3rd 2007 my Mom passed away from lung cancer. It was diagnosed on Aug 1st so it was very quick though she hadn't felt very well for a number of months. Now on Nov 18th my beloved Dad has passed away from old age and dementia. We were at least able to all be there with him as we expected him to go. We did not expect that my Mom would go as quickly as she did so we were not with her. Now, 2 short weeks after Dad a dearly loved Aunt has passed away too and I'm not sure I can take much more.
Treatments
- Crying Somewhat Helpful
- I do cry but I'm afraid of it getting out of control again so I work hard at holding it in.
- Prayer Somewhat Helpful
- Have never been particularly religious but am starting to believe in the power of prayer.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- The medication I am on was increased and I am feeling much calmer now.
- Reading Somewhat Helpful
- When I can concentrate this helps.
- Remembering Somewhat Helpful
- Remembering with family members works to a degree but some members have bad feelings towards our mother (including me at times).
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- Only my husband knows the extent of it. I am very good at hiding it from all others.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- I'm not so angry and confrontational now that the new med dosage has kicked in. Not at all in fact. Talking helps me a lot but I don't like to burden people so I basically just talk to my husband.
- Time Too Soon to Tell
- I was handling things very well for the first month but now things seem to be falling apart at the Dr. thinks Mom's death is the catalyst when I FEEL that my heart breaks more over the trouble with our daughter
- Valium Working / Worked
- Helps to put me to sleep at night but I'm trying to stop taking it now. Then I will only use it as needed.
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI've suffered with depression my whole life and I'll be 50 on my next birthday. That's a long time. You'd think a person would learn how to deal with it but when a session comes on it just slaps you in the face and the pain is unbearable. This newest session is brought on quite naturally from the loss of my mother but also by the actions of my daughter who is shutting me out of her life except when she needs something like money. She makes it perfectly clear that her friends are her priority.
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- Learned a lot about this thru the Prov. Gov't programs. They work while you are in the programs but are easily forgotten for old bad habits I'm afraid.
- Paxil Working / Worked
- Worked for a couple of years then simply stopped and had to be put on something else.
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- I try. I'm not good at this but try to keep the stinkin' thinkin' at bay.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- I see a pychiatrist regularly and have been to phychologists for therapy from time to time as well. I have done a lot of work with the Provincial Gov't. Mental Health groups as well.
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- Worked for my depression symptoms but brought on huge weight gain and diabetes. The diabetes symptoms stopped within days of stopping this medication.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- The best husband in the world and some family members and friends who seem to understand and some who simply don't get it at all.
- Trazodone Working / Worked
- Worked for a couple of years then simply stopped and had to be put on something else.
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- Have been on this for a few years now and it seems to be working except for these blurps where I have a relapse. I think the Dr. thinks my relapses are more related to anxiety than depression. Not so sure this time.
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- I find it hard to get started...
Open Anxiety
I have suffered from high anxiety levels at different periods in my life since I was in high school and I am nearing 50 now so that is a long time of trial and error with and without medication. I have terrible situational anxiety... social anxiety I guess they call it. I was doing really well for a couple of years now on my concoction of meds but a couple of serious blows to my life and I feel like I'm a mess again. I'm not sure what the Dr. will do for me today.
Treatments
- Ativan Somewhat Helpful
- Used it rarely. Didn't like the highs and lows.
- Breathing Exercises Somewhat Helpful
- You have to be able to 'think' to be able to do this and if you are in full panic mode you aren't thinking clearly enough to remember to do this without a partner there to help guide you. That has been my experience anyway.
- Klonopin Not Working
- I had a terrible reaction to chlonazepam and ended up in a very dangerous situation after basically running away from home. The worse I felt the more of the drug I took which made me feel even worse. It was very scary.
- Luvox Working / Worked
- Worked for a few years then stopped working and my meds were changed.
- Paxil Working / Worked
- Worked for a few years then stopped working and my meds were changed.
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- My head is not in a positive place so when I try to think positively I always end up back at the negative.
- Trazodone Working / Worked
- Worked for a few years then stopped working and my meds were changed.
- Valium Working / Worked
- I take this as needed which is all the time right now.
