terriann1000's Journal

The Drama Queen Continues

Why is it not everyone's priority that make sure I am employed?  I am excited about a new opportunity with the Fed, where the IT is and I just want it to happen.  Finish the back ground checks and let me know when my first day is.  I have an irrational fear that all will fall apart and I'll be back with nothing when my 60 day notice ends. I am astonished how my  sense of self and confidence is wrapped up in being employeed.  I am a victim of this American culture that force us to live to work for meaningless material consumption (mostly).   I want to be comfortable in my own skin just being terriann from moment to moment.

I know I have alot to offer in the right environment.  Please God, help me to be kind, gentle and patient with myself.  It will happen.