charliecarrie's Journal

i am feeling so lonely at the moment my illness is preventing me from doing anything, the other day in work we had an issue with new rooms and were asked to make beds i didnt feel i could say no that it would look like i was using my illnes cause no one understands what that kind of physical work can do to me. This has set me back but i wonder if i had been honest if then rather than feeling worn out i would feel like everyone would think i was lazy and i dont know which is worse

how can i feel bad because i cant do stuff its because this illness is still so misunderstood and while the people who know are supportive they dont understand how even a little physical work can hurt so much