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sugarXstix 
9.19.07
ok so today was not such a great day. i was dating this boy for almost 9 and half months. on and off. well stright today would have been our 3 months. im totaly in love head over heals for this boy. but hes no good for me. he hit me and used to be very mentaly abusive. well i would not give up on him ebcasue he was doing very well when we were together. -he dropped out before we were together- well he was doing home schooling had a job -he was a BIG alcoholic before he was with me too- well he was only drinking on occasion with me. and we had been doing cocaine together. only a few times though. because he used to be really big into that shit too. (my sister over dossed from cocaine and heroine- well i had never done it until tha day that he asked me too) well we had done coke a few times smoked some weed and shrooms once. well as you can see he was NO good for me. well after he and i broke up he lost his job has been getting shity wasted everynight. and is dating this BIGGG hoe. and i know that shes a hoe because she used to be my friend. well hes dating her. and now hes sellin blow (cocaine). i cant believe it. and i still will not give up on him. after everything that he has put me threw and this isnt even tha half of tha shit that i have gone threw with this kid. and im still here. waiting. wanting. hopeing. praying for him. all i want is for him to be happy. even if its not with me -it KILLS me to say that- but even if its not with me i want him to be happy with whoever hes with. and i wanna help him. but i just dontknow how to get threw to him anymore .....
<3 HELP!
