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lulu13 
So yeah a lot going on in my life right now, i have no solution or way out i feel depressed everyday all i want to do is cry and scream to see if someone cares, the reason why i feel like this is because my friance left me at the begining of the summer cuz i wouldnt have a baby before we getting married so he decided that he was going to have some random girl to have his baby, so he did he meet somebody i worked talked to her for like 2 weeks and then decided to get pregnat now it turns out that he call me and wants to be with me and says that he loves and feels like he made a mistake and that i should be there for him, he calls me tells me he loves me but he says that he doesnt know if he wants to stay with me or not he feels like he has to be with her knowing that he doesnt love her just because of the baby, i cant stop thinking about him and waht he has done to me, he has riun every hope and dream i ever had of becoming a mother and having a happy family, he wants to blame everything on me and for some stupid reason i keep thinking is my fault, but all i wanted was everything to be perfect you know, i find myself thinking about her and her baby i makes me so mad because she is taking everthing from me, i dont even think that she is having the baby just because she is ready to be a mother ids just an excuse so he stays with her and it kills me i dedicated myself to him for 4 years of my life and now he says he doesnt know if he wants to be with his one night stand or me i find it so hard to take this is killing me eating me inside the tought taht they will be happy expecting their child and im left with nothing i dont know waht to do i want to say fuck it leave me alone but i cant for some reason i still think that there is a chance in hell of us being happy but then that tought of having her be part of our lives makes me go crazy i dont know what to do i feel so empty so betrayed Can a person that says that loves you so much and you are the world to them do something so fuck up and just say im sorry all humans make mistakes?
