sjstrachan's Journal

Hi once again.

Life is going really well. I am so happy. Relaxed calm and in control. That may sound strange once you hear my car was virtually destroyed yesterday. Thank god Lachlan and I were not in it but inside his school. A fendt tractor lost control and plowed through my parked car......

 A bit inconvenient but we are well and thats all that matters.

I have been doing wonderful for the last few months and now to top it off I am in love.... yes I said those words. Words I never thought I would feel again..... Feel.... Can't believe I am capable of it afterall. I have felt dead to that emotion and connections for so long but now I feel alive again and on lithium no less.   

There are those friends who will understand what a treasure this is... To feel connected to another human being. After feeling like you were going through the motions on autopilot to actually feel you have steering again.

I met a man Chris is his name. He is the most affectionate human being I have ever met. Everything is easy between us and hot too lol. My son loves him my dog would leave me if only to be with Chris and I would too.   Its hard to imagine that I could be this happy but I am.  Maybe thats all it is the right someone.

Well I am just going now to go float off and get ready for Chris. Lachie is having a sleepover I am cooking tea and we are then off to the movies........