sjstrachan's Journal

Well I vanished from DS for a while. I missed you all. I am sorry I havent checked in more but have been busy with life.  Good sign. For so long I existed now I am living. I love living, feeling alive. Looking forward to each new day.

The right meds, exercise and social time. I feel like the old me. Before illness and trauma sucked the life out of me.  So its good to be here.

The last few months have been busy. Lachlan had eye surgery and did well. He now has double vision which hopefully in time will correct itself. He had squints. His eyes turned out and he was only using the one eye. He now looks at me with both eyes. It was difficult to watch him go through and even more difficult for him but in the end I think the right decision was made to get it done.

He has been having hearing problems since jan. Constant ear infections and temporary loss of hearing. I am concerned that he may have some permanent damage. He will need to see a specialist to see if he needs gromets put in to drain them and have his hearing checked.

I started volunteering one day a week at the school this last couple of months. Its is the same specialist school for disabled kids that Lachlan goes to. Not his class of course but helping the children perform their lessons and guiding them through their day. I find it challenging and rewarding. It gives insight into them and even has helped me see my son in different ways.

Gym is going well and walking Angel. She is a great dog. Golden retrievers are the best. She loves her walk and also loves us. She is so gentle with Lachlan and patient with his cuddles.

Anyway glad we have her.

I am doing well. We are doing well.  I had some disturbing news in the last month. Found out the man I had loved for a long time, the one I promised to wait for is married. He is a player and cruel man that prays on woman and delivers nothing of what he promises as he is married and a liar. Well that explains a lot all the long absences and the unavailability. So I can look at it that I wasted time waiting for someone or that it happened and i can learn from it and move on. I will do the latter. People do strange things. Unfortunately some people are selfish and cruel. But thats their problem.

Well take care and hope to write more soon. x