sjstrachan's Journal

Hi

Well its been a while since I wrote anything thought I would just say hi. I am in the land of the living still not sure how comfortable I am with it all. Its so such safer in your own box. 

Have started seeing a fella not sure how I feel yet. I think he thinks I am all for him but I am still sussing things out. I dont know how to interpret what he is saying sometimes. He runs a bit hot and cold and I dont know what to make of it all. I am almost ready to give up and not date anyone. I dont know if we are speaking the same language. Not cause he is a guy but where our heads are. Anyway might ride it out and see what happens no good cutting and running when you dont know whats around the bend.

Maybe with bp I have lost the abiiity to really feel. Thanks what it seems like at times. I feel a bit numb. 

Hope you are all well. Sorry for being a stranger.  Hope to catch up soon.

Sam