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sissy0181 
9:44pm, November 24, 2008
WELL I WENT TO MY POST OP APPT. AND THE DOCTOR SAID THAT I HAD ENDO ON MY BLADDER, AND IN AND ALL OVER MY OVERIES, THAT I HAD ALOT OF CYSTS ON THE OVERIES. AND THE TREATMENTS NEVER WORKED, SO THE ONLY OTHER THING TO DO IS THE FULL HYSTO. BECAUSE AT THIS POINT THE ENDO. IS THREATING MY LIFE. SOOOO, MY SURGERY IS ON 7/10/09. AND I NEVER GOT TO HAVE ANY BABIES, I WAS JUST TOOOO SICK. AND I HAVE BEEN HAVING A PROBLEM WITH MY LIVER, SO THEY HAVE BEEN TESTING ME FOR THAT. I'M JUST SO MAD, EVERYONE I KNOW JUST KEEPS HAVING BABIES AND THEY CAN'T EVEN TAKE CARE OF THEM. AND THEY ARE NOT EVEN IN GOOD RELATIONSHIPS, IF THEY ARE IN ANY RELATIONSHIP. SO OF THEM JUST SLEEP AROUND AND DON'T KNOW WHO THE FATHER IS. MY HUSBAND WANTS TO ADOPT WHEN I GET BETTER. BUT I KNOW I NEED TO STOP BEING MAD ABOUT THIS BEFORE WE CAN MOVE FORWARD. I NEED A GROUP THAT I CAN GO TO WHERE I LIVE AND MAKE FRIENDS WITH WOMEN THAT DON'T HAVE KIDS AND HAD A HYSTO. AND THAT ARE MARRIED. BECAUSE NO ONE UNDERSTANDS WHAT I'M GOING THROUGH. NOT EVEN MY FAMILY. I HAVE NEVER CHEATED ON MY HUSBAND, AND I'M A GOOD PERSON, SO WHY DID THIS HAPPEN TO ME? ALL I KNOW IS THAT NOT VERY MANY PEOPLE TALK ON HERE ANY MORE, AND I REALLY NEED SOMEONE THAT IS GOING THROUGH THIS TOO. SO I HOPE THERE IS SOMEONE OUT THERE................
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I'm not going through what you are experiencing but I'm happy to talk on here. I have a friend back in the UK who had all sorts of treat and ended up having a hysto in her late 30s (so a little older than you). I know its tough as she can't even bring herself to adopt she is in so much emotional pain. It sounds like you have a strong relationship with your husband and that you really are a good person....so fingers crossed when you feel strong enough and ready to adopt you will get speedy approval. Remember the most important thing is that you look after yourself, there is probably some grand master plan - we just aren't privileged enough to know what that plan is yet. Good luck and big hugs - I can't begin to imagine what you are going through. It must be horrible to abandon that hope of one day having your own baby. Take care. F x
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