MarcieM's Journal

 I am going to my RE doctor today. My bi-anual visit. I wish I could go more often!!!!! But I wrote down all the vitamins mentioned to me on here to discuss with him. I always hate these visits. I feel like its the same thing everytime. "A little worse than last visit doc." We have been switching my sleeping meds like crazy trying to find one that suits my body. Some make me too groggy all day the next day. Some make me feel sick to my stomach. Some dont put me to sleep fast enough to do any good. The one that worked best at putting me to sleep and keeping me asleep... I got immediately addicted to and started becoming "nonfunctional" earlier and earlier each night. So it had to go. What I am on now (Clonazepam) worked GREAT the first few weeks. But now I am back to my usual patterns. Hard time falling asleep (too much pain and too much stress on my mind). Then I wake up often during the night. This whole week I start waking up around 4:30 and wake up every 30 minutes or so. So I feel DRAINED! Maybe I should increase to two of this pill? We will see what he says. I wish I could have ONE pill that would help me sleep right, ease my pain, and not cause any side effects!!!!!! I hate taking medicines. I hate paying for them! I hate how they make me feel! But a day without my pain med (Sulindac) and I pay for it for days. I want something that helps more, but I hate to go off of one that works as well as this one does when its likely I will have to go through several that dont work before I find one that does. So for over a year I have chosen to take it as it is.