The mercy of it all and the love from God above
October 30, 2009 4:55pm
Have you ever been so faithful and so positive that nothing could bring you down? I feel that way today, I really do.
Just last night Bill was …
roseypeach 
8:58am Thursday
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About Me
roseypeach
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About Me
I was dx'd bipolar 1 with psychotic features 5 years ago after suffering a mental breakdown. I've known most of my life that something wasn't right but my mother refused to acknowledge that I had a mental health problem while my ex insisted I was crazy and needed help. I am what they call a rapid cycler, with my moods changing constantly, sometimes reaching 5 to 10 times in one day. I seem to be more stable now and have found a great pdoc that has found the wonder cocktail for me. I also suffer from COPD, Hypothyroidism, among a few other things. God is working in my life and I know things will only get better.
I was dx'd bipolar 1 with psychotic features 5 years ago after suffering a mental breakdown. I've known most of my life that something wasn't right but my mother refused to acknowledge that I had a mental health problem while my ex insisted I was crazy and needed help. I am what they call a rapid cycler, with my moods changing constantly, sometimes reaching 5 to 10 times in one day. I seem to be more stable now and have found a great pdoc that has found the wonder cocktail for me. I also suffer from
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Interests
I'm a computer junkie, love to watch movies and a soap junkie! CBS of course! Y&R #1 for 35 years! I really love to travel, and have been as far as Belize! I also love to cook and experiment with different culture recipes. I am a wife, and mother of two handsome sons and one beautiful daughter, and a very happy grandmother of two gorgeous little girls! I am a dog lover, I have two black lab mixed dogs, one still a puppy. Here's an update. I now have a third lab puppy named Petey, and let me tell ya, he is a character! Very loving and loves to give hugs, like me! I just love my canine babies!
I'm a computer junkie, love to watch movies and a soap junkie! CBS of course! Y&R #1 for 35 years! I
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Little Love
thanks so much for your message
Prayer
Hey Rosey, Thanks for the two hugs. Big squishy hugs back to you. I tried to send you an email w/lots of pics. It seems I have the wrong email address. Can you send it to me via email, please?
Love you,
Debi
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thank you for your comment left on my journal article... I had some how over looked they might feel the need to overcompensate!
Little Love
I'm so glad you're doing better sweets!! oxoxo Sandra
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Ray of Sunshine
Rosey, Thanks for the lovely heart hug. I'm so glad you are filled with peace right now. I've been praying about that for you. As I already said, I'll try to call & actually get ahold of you today. It's been waaaaay too long, eh? :)
Love, Debi
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Close Bipolar Disorder
I am BP1 with psychosis. I have tried to commit suicide twice, thank God both times failed. I recently was in the hospital on suicide watch and received some new meds so I am feeling a bit better these days. I do struggle a great deal and don't seem to be able to stay stable for very long at a time. This is new to me at least since I've known of my disorder. I wonder if getting older is making mine worse.
Treatments
- Lithium Working / Worked
- Has worked wonderfully for me. No complaints.
- Lithium Working / Worked
- Has worked wonderfully for me. No complaints.
- Paxil Somewhat Helpful
- Works okay. Probably need a higher dose.
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- Just got started on Seroquel about a month ago. It has done WONDERS for my rapid cycling.
Close Hypothyroidism
I had a very difficult time with dry skin, itching, hair loss, constipation, depression and memory loss. After a routine blood test it was discovered that I had low thyroid. That was 3 years ago. Today I am on 100mcg of Synthroid and am doing better.
Treatments
- Synthroid Working / Worked
Open Hiatal Hernia
After a panic attack it was discovered that I had a hiatal hernia. The doc did a gastroscopy and discovered I had a hiatal hernia, esophagal damage and an ulcer.
Treatments
Open COPD & Emphysema
Well, where to start. I'd been having trouble getting breathless for several weeks, my legs hurting, unable to perform housework without my heart pounding out of my chest. After several tests on my heart the doctors realized it was respiratory related. I have been told I have emphysema but will have PFT to confirm diagnosis.
Treatments
Open Obesity
I started gaining weight during and after my second child. I went from 135 to 200 pounds by the time I gave birth and my son only weighed 6 pds and 13 oz. After that, I used SlimFast and lost all the weight. Eventually I gained it all back and then after my third child, I went on it again and weighed 125. I stayed there for a few years but then stress took over my life, depression, and a divorce. I was dx'd bipolar, along with hypothyroidism in 2003. Today I weight 262 pounds.
Treatments
- Physical Exercise Not Working
- My hypothyroid makes it extremely difficult to lose weight even with an hour of exercise a day.
- Slim-Fast Working / Worked
- I lost 65 pounds the first time I used it and close to 40 pounds the last time. Tried it again recently but I can't believe I was ever able to drink that junk!
- Topamax Somewhat Helpful
- I was placed on this for my mood disorder, I didn't really notice a large affect on my weight.
- Weight Watchers Not Working
- Tried it and hated it. Mostly I hated the meetings and weigh-ins.
- Synthroid Too Soon to Tell
- Never helped before but they didnt take my T3 and T4 into consideration back then. Just started a higher dose and will have bloodwork done to see if its doing its job in a few weeks.
Open Smoking Addiction & Recovery
I am a nearly 40 year old smoker, started when I was 15 and was smoking a pack a day in my twenties. I now smoke 2+ packs a day and am having a hard time quitting but I must soon, as I have been dx'd with COPD/Asthma and have been told my life will end in my early sixties if I do not quit. I need all the help I can get. It is a lot harder than I ever thought it would be to quit.
Treatments
- Commit Lozenge Working / Worked
- Worked, but burned my mouth and throat.
- Nicotine Gum Working / Worked
- Worked, but again, burning in my mouth and throat.
- Nicotine Patch Working / Worked
- Worked for a while, but I can only use the latex free kind which are more expensive and the latex kind left a burn like rash on my skin.
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- Made me more anxious and irritable.
Open Back Pain
Funny story. Had lower back pain off and on for a couple of years, no big deal. Saw a doctor in January 2008 because I had electrical shocks in the lower portion of my right leg. Doc decides its my old sciatica flaring up. Go on my way to then having severe chest pain and pressure, had a heart catheter which was clean, they finally dx'd me with COPD/Emphysema/Asthma. Ok, so I guess now I am feeling more run down. Have an xray. Am told I have bone spurs on and around L4 and L5. Lovely!
Treatments
- Bedrest Working / Worked
- Sure, but eventually you have to get up? LOL!
- Cortisone (Injection) Considering
- Kinda freaked out about it, but at this point, why not?
- Ibuprofen Somewhat Helpful
- Helps a little but wears off quick.
- Orthopedic Brace Somewhat Helpful
- Feels better and gets me a bit more mobile but I pay the price after sitting more than 10 or 15 minutes.
- TENS Working / Worked
- Helps my back pain some but I have to take antiflammatory meds too.
Open Sciatica
I was in an accident back in 1998 which left me with sciatica on my right side. Over the years after treatment I had little problems until I had a fall. I am now having sciatica pain on both sides and it's not budging. On top of that, the doctor says I have a possible herniated disc.
Treatments
- Ibuprofen Working / Worked
- Works ok
- Stretching Working / Worked
- I have to stretch regularly or I feel like one big cramp.
- TENS Not Working
- Actually causes more 'spasms' and tingling. Yikes!
- Lyrica Working / Worked
- So far so good. The good doctor put me on Lryica recently and so far no problems just a bit of laziness.
- Cyclobenzaprine Working / Worked
- Good muscle relaxer helps alot
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionWhere to start? I was officially dx'd with clinical depression back in 1999. That was a misdiagnosis though because I was actually suffering from bipolar disorder and was having many manic episodes. These days, as of the last few years, depression has been my control monster. It has eaten away at months and months of my life and left me void with no hope. I am getting treated by a great doc now and am doing somewhat better with it.
Treatments
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- Helps more than you realize except when in the deep throes of depression.
- Prozac Working / Worked
- Seems to be working fine.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Helped as long as I was getting it but it wasn't long after I was released from monthly care that I became ill again.
Open Personality Disorders
Type: Schizotypal Personality DisorderHaven't been dx'd with a personality disorder, so to speak. I have however, done a personality disorder test online which suggested I may be Schizotypal. Just wanted to share my experience with DBT and help support those who need it the most.
Treatments
- Talking Working / Worked
- DBT classes, group therapy, one on one therapy. Discussing my feelings with others.
Open The Financial Crisis
Lost our home due to the recession and lack of work in the construction industry (husband drives dump truck). Praying hard that things turn around soon.
Open Urinary Incontinence
I have suffered from UI since giving birth to my first child. It started mildly, with it only being SI in the beginning but now it is both. I've dealt with it for nearly 5 years on a regular daily basis and am finally seeking medical help after making Poise rich.
Treatments
- Kegel Exercise Working / Worked
- It helps some with the SI side of things.
- VESIcare Working / Worked
- Just started it last week, seems to help a lot.
Open Fibromyalgia
To find out if I should see a doctor for FM. I have had symptoms for most of my life but never knew about fibromyalgia or what was going on with my body.
Treatments
- Heat Working / Worked
- Works great, but the sore's and scars on my back are many from falling asleep with it.
- Lyrica Working / Worked
- Worked wonderfully until my doc took me off because my insurance company won't approve its use until I try 3 other substitutes first, over a period of months.
- Neurontin Somewhat Helpful
- Works ok, but because of my manic depression, it causes me to be very manic and unable to sleep for two or more days at a time. I only take when desperate.
- TENS Somewhat Helpful
- Works ok for moderate pain but I have to use heat and the tens to help severe pain along with some form of medication.
- Ultram Somewhat Helpful
- Had to take two to help and that had to stop because of the breathing side effects on my COPD.
