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ewart 
Just trying to make it through the evening. I'm being bad once again - wine and spritzer mixed together but I can't seem to give up the wine. I feel like a BIG FAT loser. Speaking of fat, are these meds making me fat? Never did before. I think I'm eating for comfort now - SUCKS big time. Maybe a better day tomorrow and I won't worry about losing my great job. Career suicide if I do because I have a killer resume - always over-qualified for everything being an assistant. Going to Puerto Vallerta in March and am very scared - normally would be so excited I couldn't sit still. I get very excited about these things BUT now,I really don't want to go but I have to for my kids and my husband.
All for now - pray to God I recover soon
Okay, it's been over a year now with this episode of anxiety/depression. Will it ever go away? Just started Cymbalta and coming off Lexapro - could this be the reason I'm so whacked out right now - want to cry a lot. I need prayers and lots of them to overcome this AGAIN in my life. I've done it three times before and when I'm well, I NEVER think of this - I block it for years until it rears it's ugly head again. I go years in between though so I'm a lucky one but will this one ever end?
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Oh, I had an episode at 25 and then none for 10 years with NO meds, and then again after my son was born and was on Effexor for 3 months - went off for 18 months because I thought I was well, had another one after that that lasted 7 months but went on Effexor for 15 weeks until I was completely well and then stayed on meds for 7 years with NO anxiety/depression - happy as ever and now this one. I was not on enough lexapro, I guess, to help me not spiral down. Tried Effexor again but it made me crazy just like the other two times - guess I should have stuck it out at 150mg for 15 weeks again instead of going up and down and up and down on it. I'm stuck on Lexapro and Wellbutrin now per my doctor with NO changes................anyone had these - and how do you get positive? I've always gotten over this but this one is very different. I panic over everything.
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GLAD TO SEE THAT YOUR WRITING IN YOUR JOURNAL. YOU SWITCHING MEDS MAY HAVE SOMETHING TO DO WITH THE WAY YOU FEEL. I THINK WHEN ANXIETY CREEPS BACK INTO OUR LIVES, THERE IS SOMETHING THAT IS BOTHERING US. SOMETIMES YOU MAY NOT EVEN FIGURE OUT WHAT IT IS. YOU SAID YOU FEEL LIKE CRYING ALL THE TIME. I URGE YOU STRONGLY TO GO GET YOUR HORMONE LEVELS CHECKED. IF ANYTHING, IF IT ISN'T RELATED TO THE PROBLEM YOU COULD RULE IT OUT AND MOVE ON TO WHAT MAYBE IS REALLY BOTHERING YOU. LIKE YOU SAID, YOU HAVE HAD THIS BEFORE AND IT PASSED. THIS WILL ALSO PASS. TRY TO KEEP POSITIVE THOUGHTS, GO FOR WALKS,AND I KNOW ITS HARD SOMETIMES, BUT TRY TO SMILE. TAKE CARE AND GOD BLESS.
momshere
Thanks for the encouragement - everyone is wonderful here.
ewart