Journal

      Well it's been a long couple of weeks.  I added some to my book, it's much better now.  IDK when I'll start my second one.  Too many ideas running through my head.  My Pdoc took me off Zoloft, went into a deep depression, so he put me on Luvox.  I hate the side effects, dry mouth, no sleep, little appetite, oh and the hot flashes.  I don't see the benefits of taking this drug, I had to up my Adderall just to keep going through the day.  He has me on Ambien for sleep, but I have to take 3 just to be tired. And he can't give me any stronger Ambien I'm on the strongest dose.  And to top it off I don't see him until the 30th.  Ok it's only a couple of weeks away.  I'm sure I can make it...I hope.

      I'm so tired that I think I'll take a nap when hubby gets up.  He's home sick until tomorrow.  Some kind of viral thing.  He even wears a mask in the house for it not to spread or he get worse.  ALL the kids are coughing now, tis the season :P 

      I can't really think of what else to say.  I'm so behind on my hugs and reading journals.  And for that I'm very sorry, life has just been so hard lately.  I will catch up with everyone as soon as I feel better.  

      I guess that is it for now.  I'm sure there is more to add.  Oh like I have 5 kids in my house in the morning and afternoon.  That drives me crazy sometimes, but I'm trying to help out a single dad.  So it's all good.  

      OK I guess I'm done now.  

      Ciao for now.

Audrey 

     I have gotten a lot of responses to my last journal, I didn't really OD, I took ONE pill more than I should have with my Abilify and Wellbutrin.  I feel a little fuzzy and my head hurts but I'm fine.  I'm making more sense in this journal than my last.  I've been talking to a really good friend (Rampantkat) most of the morning and he's been helping a lot.  I am not going to say everything is ok, but I'm trying very hard for it to be.  I'm so tired of feeling like my insides are being eaten up by sorrow.  I'm tired of feeling like everything is my fault, I'm tired of making everyone worry about me.  I'm fine other than the apparent problems atm.  So if you have any concerns, just contact me johnzsnow@yahoo.com and I'll get back to you asap.  Thanks for the support.

Audrey