SherryICU's Journal

Got up this morning for my fasting lab work to be done. Had pressure in my chest the whole ride there to the point I felt someone was sitting on my chest. I was short of breath and felt as though I could not get a deep enough inspiration. I really fought hard not to take a xanax. I analyzed the situation weather this was cardiac in origin or just "ME"...responding inappropriately to my panic. Funny thing is...I wasn't even thinking of anything distressing..I was at peace and happy and comfortable this morning so I could'nt figure out why I was feeling this way. Decided to take the xanax to see if it was "ME" or a true cardiac manifestation. Low and behold...after 20 minutes the pressure was gone..I was breathing better...life was better. What a crushing blow to know that I am becoming dependant on a pill to control my subconscious mind. How humiliating and weak that is. My husband still says things like "You've got to take control of your mind"  etc...etc...He does'nt realize that I am not initiating these things...they start when they want to! Anyway, I am "AGAIN" debating zoloft. I can't live my life on benzodiazepenes. The withdrawals are worse then the actual attack. It helps for the now but YOU WILL PAY LATER!! Somtimes triple times one of the original panic attacks. So here I sit...tonight I will make up my mind and take one or not. Anyone have any suggestions???? I think by now everyone knows the main side effects I hate about zoloft is the weight gain and loss of sexual desire. Wow, all the great things in life and thing we struggle with everyday are side effects. BUMMER...........ANY ADVICE...