DDDnTN's Journal

     It’s been pretty calm today, thank goodness.  I made a trip to the next city to get my supplements since I’m running dry.  Boy, that cost a small fortune.  I’m taking advantage of living here while I can and stocking up on things I’m going to need somewhere soon down the line.  Two can play the goose’s game.

     The goose is in the process of refinancing “his” house that’s in “his” trust and been whining today because I won’t sign jointly on the loan.  When he pulls crap like this I always wonder if he honestly thinks I have stupid tattooed on my forehead.  Signing that paperwork would be cutting off my nose to spite my face.  I gain nothing from it but huge bills that would completely bankrupt me and I’m not that damn foolish.

     he asked earlier this morning if I would take a few minutes to walk him through the install of the new tax software.  I told him no, I had plans for the day and didn’t have time.  Just yesterday, I told him I plan to spend as little time here as necessary from now on and am leaving tomorrow and may or may not be back until Monday.  I told him it would be easier for both of us if he would schedule an appointment with me so I could make sure I don’t have anything on my schedule.  What he fails to realize is the “few minutes” is actually more like four hours and then some.  Since I uninstalled the program from my computer, I am no longer responsible for the work and it really isn’t my problem.  he was supposed to be paying me for the past eight years and hasn’t and that figure is way up there now so I don’t feel any obligation to go out of my way or change my plans to help him.

     I’m still waiting for the people who own the home we made an offer on.  Once the holidays are over and he has another payment to make and thinks about it, he may change his mind and sell while he can since it’s been sitting for so long.  I’m pretty sure I will end up with it; it’s just a matter of horse trading and time.

     I don’t know what the goose is going to do when I actually begin to move out but again, it’s not my problem.  he’ll have to learn how to do things for himself and won’t have anyone to be co-dependent on and that’s okay too.  he needs to grow some balls and act his age instead of like a spoiled child.

     he starts a part time job the 2nd and I’m looking forward to him being gone.  I’m hoping and praying my part time job comes through because I’m going to need every penny I can get my hands on.

     I’ve been back and forth in e-mail with my realtor in Arkansas and my property is on the market.  I really hate to sell that beautiful piece of property but I have no other choice and I need the money.  That five, wooded acres is about as close to heaven as anyone can get on earth.

     As much as I detest moving, I’m actually looking forward to this positive move.  I know I will feel better and I won’t have to be here with the alcoholic and that suits me just fine.  I know I will go through an adjustment period and I may even suffer a set back but I don’t expect it to be anything like what I’ve already been through.  When I think about moving and being away from the goose, a peace engulfs me and I don’t see a downside to that.

     My New Year will be spent with my best friend and the goose will be here all alone.  I can’t say he didn’t bring it on himself.

     Charlie is taking the goose to look at apartments tomorrow morning and a small, three bedroom house that would be perfect for him IF he will sell this one.  We’ll see how that goes; we all know that the only logic about the goose is there is no logic.

     Anyway, I’m looking forward to the next several days and time with my best friend.  I will be away from here with no stress overload and will feel much better.