DDDnTN's Journal

I had a talk with the goose last night and this house goes on the market the first of May.  This place has been a huge albatross we could have both easily lived without.  I see this as a good thing in many ways.  I can go my way and get well and he can go his.  This is a win/win situation for both of us and might salvage a “friendship” and not part as enemies.

I have already found a cute little house and I’m still looking for a job but I don’t expect it will take me very long to find a part time job I can handle that will help offset my new bills.

IF the goose had returned all of the misappropriated money, I would be in much better financial shape but he didn’t and I don’t so I have to move on.

At some point I had to ask myself what price I was willing to pay for peace of mind and the answer has always been the same.  I would rather be out on my own, scrimping and working my butt off and coming home to a peaceful place than the situation I’m in now.

At my age, this is one huge step and not for the weak hearted, I can assure you of that.  Weighing the pros and cons, I can only see me getting better and better as time passes by and there is something to be said about peace of mind.  I will have a new set of stressful situations but I won’t be living in a toxic situation and I’m ok with that.

After our talk last night, I went to bed and slept like a log, that’s the best sleep I’ve had in years.  I know for a fact that stress can cause all kinds of physical problems and toxic situations are not good for either party.

Maybe, just maybe, this will work out to benefit both of us and we can get back to some sort of normal life whatever that is.  God, at least, I hope so!