Journal Entry for September 16, 2007
September 16, 2007 4:42pm
Joined some more communities today. I really love this site. I feel really grateful that i will always have somewhere to come when i'm feeling …
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Journal Entry for September 14, 2007
September 14, 2007 9:20pm
Just popping in briefly tonight. it's two in the morning over here and I have to get up early for my daughters tenth birthday. How time flies. …
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Close Alcoholism
Hi, I started drinking at a young age to overcome the extreme self-loathing i felt as a result of the sexual and emotional abuse i was experincing in my foster home
Treatments
- 12 Step Program Working / Worked
- i have good days and very black days
- AA Meetings Working / Worked
- feel a bit out of place. find it hard to connect with people
- Detox Not Working
- relapsed the day after i left
- Outpatient Treatment Program Not Working
- was not really ready to stop drinking
- Willpower Not Working
- will power, with alcohol. yeah right!
Close Depression
First tried to commit suicide age 12. had to hide my depression for a long time but it used to come out in othert ways, (unexplained rashes, excema, migraine etc..) Then i 'treated' it with alcohol. Beginning to recover now
Treatments
- Celexa Working / Worked
- I have on average two awful days out of seven. A vast improvement.
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- Only works on a 'good' day. Nearly impossible when i'm right in it.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Beginning to get to the root cause of my depression, it's gonna be a long process though.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Met a fellow sufferer in AA, helps to have the identification with someone but we both tend to isolate when we feel crap so we don't see each other that much.
- Writing Not Working
- Find it hard to be consistent with writing.
Open Sexual Abuse
my foster brother started having sex with me when i was about five. On occassion he used to let his friends do it too. Then my foster father started when i was eleven, three or four times a week for over five years. Felt like i was to blame for such a long time because i took the money that i was silenced with. Therapy is helping now but it will take a long time.
Treatments
- Talking Working / Worked
- I'm beginning to open up and it's slowly tapping into that great well of sadness.
