LegalAlien's Journal

I'm in a spot of bother. I have a friend - a great friend, who I know would be completely understanding, but he doesn't know about what happened to me. Anyway, long story short, I'm kind of in a position now where I either have to explain to him or I have to be a complete bitch and freeze him out of my life completely. I really don't want to lose him as a friend, so I think I have to tell him. But I've never told anyone before - there are three people in the world who know (apart from the people who were involved), and they all found it out in other ways. I have no idea how to begin telling him, and I'm terrified that it'll make him see me completely differently. I know he'd be totally on my side, and totally supportive, but I don't want him to see me as a 'victim' of anything. And if I'm honest, I don't want to have to say the words.

I don't know what to do. I was hoping writing it down might help to clarify it in my mind, but I'm just as confused as I was when I started writing this entry.