Sara017's Journal

Well, after feeling great! yesterday, I cried myself to sleep last night, and have felt the effects all day.....

Actually, I was doing pretty good, till I walked into the church an hour late for the banquet. First person I run across, Anne, she smiled at me, and I returned the gesture. I pushed that thought aside, and asked Lark's mom what we could do  She said that serving was pretty much over, so Jess got to sort silverware, while I dried pans for Mr Reed. Then I helped Jess finish up with the silverware, but I kept looking around, because Allen told me he would be there. I saw him, and then I went back to what I was doing. 

Finished with the silverware, I went to eat pizza with the servers, poked Allen in the back on the way. Talked to Elliott for awhile, before I found Lark. Then I just sort of stood there, and ate, grabbed a water and sipped on it. Followed Lark around after that, she started texting Allen, and I just walked away. Everyone was walking around the halls pretty much, there wasnt much to do until the dinner was over.

I was talking to Anne and Bethany, and someone came up and hugged me from behind. I was kinda shocked, "Lark who is behind me?" And I turned around, it was a lady I didnt know, "Oh Im sorry hun, I thought you were Anne." "Haha, sorry, Anne is right there." "Thank you." Second blow.....why does that bother me?  Because Anne and I are two completely different people, the only thing we have in common is that we both like Allen. I just dont want to be compared to her, simple as that.

So I continued to walk around till Dana and Mia showed up. Dana gave me a hug, and we chatted a little. "So what should we do?" "We should go find Jesse!" "ya!" We found him, and he ran, missed the wet floor sign, and slipped on the floor. Dana, Lark, Mia, and I were DYING laughing!! I saw Allen in the hall a few times, but I didnt say anything to him. I couldnt, not with Anne there:/

Then it came to clean up. Which started off kinda fun, I just got things off the tables to throw away. "Hey Jeanelle, whats wrong? you seem mad." Lark said out of blue. "Do I look mad?" "Ya...." "Well Im not mad, Im just......*voice trails off*...I dont know....." I do have to say, Anne, Lark, Dana, Allen, and I make a great cleanup team. We were done cleaning off the tables in like 15 minutes. Lark and Allen were teasing eachother like the whole time, and Im thinking, Lay off Lark, Anne is watching you know, and youre bringing me into this. 

Luckily we were finished, Lark, Dana, Mia and I stacked chairs and rolled tables away.  Allen and Anne went to help with the rest of the dishes. After that Jess and I left, and I was just silent the whole way home. I didnt know what to say, I was too busy thinking.  I still am, I just dont know what came over me, jealousy maybe? I hate jealousy, and it would really suck if I am jealous:/ sigh, guess thats it......