Sara017's Journal

Images of sititng in front of the fireplace,

In our own house, lots of cozy space.

The warmth of our huddled family inside,

Why did these dreams have to die?

The talks of playing Halo till dawn,

Laughing till our strength was gone.

The crazy stories we would tell,

Why on these thoughts must I dwell?

Memories of sleeping in the rain,

Trying to drown out all of our pain,

Under blankets we stayed barely warm.

Why now do I feel alone in the storm?

All the times dreaming under the stars,

Pointing out pictures, and finding Mars.

Just peaceful evenings watching the sunset.

Why am I feeling so much regret?

I miss the wonderful life of us, we had dreamed,

So peachy, happy brilliant, everything seemed,

Love was the bond that held our hopes together,

Through the rain, lightning, stormy weather.

I miss the nights we would stay up just because,

We talked and talked about nothing, just us,

We were all eachother needed, no one else,

It was magical, like a transe or spells.

I miss the words that lifted me up so high,

It resolved my depression, I never wanted to die,

That feeling Im afraid will not be replaced....

In the world for now, Im trying to find my place.

Get back to reality, and live like I havent changed,

Trying to quiet the anxiety, and calm the rage,

Laugh it off and put on a smile,

Hoping it lasts for at least awhile....