MinnesotanMommy's Journal

Got some walking in at Walmart. Had to get some foods. I was stuck on eating full fat cheese cuz that's all I had here and I was tired of that. So I got myself some fat free cheese slices, some fat free shredded cheese, mango, cantaloupe, and pears, along with some lettuce and sunflower nuts for my salads. I got some other things...fat free mayo, V-8 V-Fusion in Strawberry Banana. I love it and it gives me some vitamin A as well, which I need. Got other things. I got a new bra. Got it on the small side cuz I don't like this buying every month thing with the bra. They aren't what I call cheap. Granted $12 isn't much, but when you have little money, it's enough to spend to try and look better. My other one is more comfy, the last one I got a month ago, but I can pull lots of fabric on the measurement around. In two or three weeks this one will fit comfortably I'm sure. It's not like dig into the skin tight, just a bit snug and slightly uncomfortable. Nothing I can't deal with for a couple of weeks. Found an olive colored t-shirt for $3 on sale. It's the first shirt I've bought since surgery, and the first one I bought that's a size down! I think I'm in around 30/32 elastic banded jeans. I tried on a size below that and they're more snug then I care to wear. In a month or two, I'll be down more. So I'm not sweating it. Dude, my husband is snoring! I should stick a sock in his mouth...I can't stand snoring. Carl even quit complaining about my snoring, so I musta stopped or decreased or something in the last weeks here. I'm bordering 299. I've been working for 3 days to get it down. I loose every 2-3 days I'm noticing since I got my scale. I weigh in the mornings and so far I'm stuck at 300, though it isn't bothering me cuz in a couple day's time, I usually move on the scale. Can't complain too much. I'm making descent choices. I had a bit of a supreme pizza. Bought a small one since I'm the only one who eats it. It was pretty good. I don't eat pizza often, so it was a nice treat. I know it's not the best thing to eat, but I was craving it and I know if I don't allow myself something like that when I crave it, I'll try to binge on it and get sick. I've binged and then dumped cuz I didn't allow myself and then ate the wrong foods trying to fill that craving. I generally don't crave things I'd dump...cookies, chips, candy. A little boughten pizza that I cooked isn't so big a deal really. I try not to eat it more then every few weeks, and only if I really feel like eating it. I'm gonna load up on fruits, well, not really. I'm going to enjoy my fruit I just got. I'm trying a mango tomorrow. I haven't had one in eons as I didn't care for them pre-op real well, but since my taste has changed, I decided I needed to give it another try. Ah...finally getting sleepy. I loaded up on meds tonight...well, not really. I took my prescription, then added some Benadryl (also on doc's orders for insomnia). I wanted to sleep a full night for once. Haven't done so in a few nights and this interupted sleep leaves me so tired. So hopefully the addition of Benadryl temporarily will help me sleep through the night, or at least until 4 in the morning. After that I only have an hour and a half. I have this cyst. It's on my thigh and it annoys me. It kinda bothers me sometimes. The doc said it's harmless, but if it's painful, I can go to the dermatologist and get a steroid shot at the location and it'll temper it down enough to go away and feel better. I get them a lot. She said they were cysts. I didn't know that. Just knew it was a hard lump with no head to it and red. Now I know what they are. I used to get them under my arms all the time and I thought they were boils, but they weren't I found out. I started on liquids this morning, and broke off it, but I think I'ma move on to a spot in my diet where I start liquids for a day or two when I'm slipping out of control on my food choices. I'm good about not grazing since my doc says to eat every three hours. I don't feel like I don't get food cuz I'm eating small amounts so frequently. I don't always follow my diet in terms of number of meals. I sometimes only eat four in a day instead of six. No big. Most days I'm good to get five or six in though. I sorta let my body tell me what to do now, learning to listen to my body, though I try to eat/drink something of substance every few hours. Oh man, watching Food Network and they're talking about deep fried pickles. Makes me want deep fried okra. One thing I enjoyed while I was down south. Oh well, it'll pass. I'll keep drinking fluid...well, take a drink before bed here. I'm getting rather sedated and zoned finally. Life is pretty good right now.