MinnesotanMommy's Journal

I know I'm not around much. Life seems to run away with me right now. I'm online and chat if someone is online or check my e-mail, check updates that are done on various sites, but I don't really do anything outside of that. Guess I kinda burned myself out on journalling. For a while there I was writing a lot. Maybe once the school season starts in a little over a month, I'll get back into my grove and fit writing back into my routine. I just won't write to simply write I guess. Who I am, I suppose.

Well, recently there isn't really much to report outside of the ordinary. Laundry, cleaning house, appointments, repeat. I am still going to treatment and that is going so fantastic! I totally am beyond glad for starting that. I have some sanity in life. I thought this group would just aide me in stopping my binge eating, but its helped me on so many levels! My relationships are improving, I'm happier and more content, I'm finding myself again. This is just impacting so many areas of my life and its so very very wonderful! And the program I'm in, IT WORKS!

I'm slowly plugging away at a new website. When I'm done, it'll share my journey with my eating disorders (bulimia and binge eating disorder) as well as my experience with various mental illnesses that I fight on a daily basis, as well as websites to correspond with the subjects at hand. I'm loving the way I have it set up, but man, is it a lot of work. I now see why people pay others to build websites! This one is a lot of work! But, it's going to be worth it. I want to reach out to others who suffer from the daily battles that I do, that I can help them on a personal level. I'm not trained in anything professional (outside of dietary management), but I have personal experience to lend to anyone who wants to learn from it and learn what I'm learning in recovery from various problems.

I'm coming off of my medication again. I'm slowly decreasing the dosages. On Sunday, it'll be a full week I've been doing this and so far its going great! I'm praying about things (it helps me personally), talking to my friends, not stuffing myself full of food and just dealing with the issues as they come up, and let me tell you, I feel things now in full intensity! But, its all worth it! I want to be free of prescriptions, and I know I can do this because I WANT TO! With determination, I rarely fail at what I set out to do. I just have to want it with my entire heart to make it work, and this is what I want so very much!

I went to the dentist and he asked how things were going with my mouth and I told him that I had some sensitivity on my upper left again, so he peeked in there and said it looked like I'd lost a piece of tooth or part of the filling, but it was on the outside of the tooth so he wasn't sure which one it was. He said I had to option of either refilling the one that chipped or the other one that just needs a tighter contact. I chose to fill the one that's causing me problems, or rather, to refill it. So hopefully that'll remove the sensitivity to sweets. He said it was likely that the sugar from the sweets was leaking into the open spot in the tooth/filling and hitting my nerve and that may have been what was causing the pain I was having. So, now that's taken care of!

Well, today Ethan and I are going with my cousin (and her son who's, I think, 3) and my aunt to a hotel in Elk River. It has a water park (my cousin was picky in that respect, LOL) and then tonight we'll ding around in the water park with the boys and tomorrow, we're going to Como Zoo so the kids can do that. Well, I'm excited to go to the zoo as here I am, 30, and I've NEVER been to a zoo! People are always shocked when I say that. LOL

Ug...another episode of Sponge Bob. Anyone who knows me well, knows I can barely tolerate the sponge with legs! And now episode 2 is on. Ethan is in and out of the living room watching it. The ONLY reason I have it on is so when he is in here, he can watch it cuz time seems to go faster for him that way. And we have an hour and a half before we leave. He knows full well he doesn't get to watch the sponge in THIS house any other time, so he's totally soaking up the time he's getting in to watch this. We don't allow the sponge in here, and never will most likely. Well, rarely do I allow it on. I just despise the show. It's so mindless to me. I prefer to let him watch Little Bear or Diego or something. In fact, I've seen this episode once and HATE this particular one. Some of them are tolerable, but this one about the squid (I think) not having a crabby patty before is just annoying!!! Oh well. I think I'll survive!

I need to upload some new pictures of my kittens! They so adorable and funny!

Well, I'm off to do other things. Hopefully I'll be writing more come September so I can keep in touch in some form with all my friends here! Hope everyone has a FANTASTIC day!!