MinnesotanMommy's Journal

I don't have the emotional strength to write much at the moment. Long story short, I don't want to talk about it really...I lost my best friend, the one person who really got me and was there...and because...well, I'm not going into it. I can't. I'm sick of crying. I'm calling my therapist shortly. I see my suppport worker this afternoon. My sister is calling to check on me later. I'm so not in a good spot emotionally. I'm worn down right now...and hurting...badly. This is a blow I wasn't ready for, just not ready for. It came very unexpected...and I feel like someone died...and it hurts...knowing she's still alive and well means much to me, but I won't know how she's doing cuz she isn't going to talk to me right now. I don't know what I did wrong except that I have an eating disorder. Its robbing me of friends now. And I'm devestated. Very badly. I can't talk about this anymore. No more.