MinnesotanMommy's Journal

So far today things are well. My moods are really jumpy lately though. I can be fine in the morning and as soon as I'm alone for a half hour when Ethan goes to school and Carl goes to work, I get down again from getting lonely. But, I'm going to try and anticipate a good day ahead of me. I'm good for projecting a bad day ahead of me before it even happens. I'm going to be working on that. I didn't realize I was doing that until one of the DBT facilitators pointed out I was doing that on Tuesday during group. So that's my goal to work on. Not much outside of laundry and dishes to work on today. Carl has a doctor's appointment with the foot doctor today again. I'm hoping he's getting relief...he's on pain pills right now from an arch falling and slight tendonitis as a result. I met with my new therapist Tuesday. We didn't really accomplish much in way of working on issues I was having because we sort of had our feelers out getting to know the other person. I think I'll really like her though. She's so very nice and seems to have a very good heart for her job. My sister and her husband are leaving Ohio to come up here tomorrow! I'm so eager to see her! They'll be over here Saturday sometime and we're doing family pictures (Carl, Ethan & I) and then some with her and her husband with Ethan too. I'm really excited to see her though. I miss her so much. I think the few days I get to spend with her will fly by! I think I'll struggle when she leaves again, but I'll take that as it comes at me. I usually struggle when she leaves again after seeing her. But I don't need to project that far ahead. My support worker squeezed me into her schedule this morning at 8. Usually she doesn't see me before 8:30, but she sqeezed me in an 8:00 slot cuz her schedule is so tight at the end of the week. She must have figured the quarterly meeting is enough for the week, but, for me, its just not. I didn't get to talk much in therapy about things, so I kind of wanted to see my worker so I could talk openly about the last week and sort of do some problem solving with her so I'm feeling a little better before my sister shows up. I don't want to feel this heavy burdened feeling all weekend too! So I'm so glad she fit me into her schedule for today! Not much else to report for now. My son is holding our pregnant cat despite me telling him to leave her alone. Figures. LOL. I better try to get him moving and get him to put her down.