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ana81 
11:06pm, August 27, 2009
It breaks my heart when I meet someone or know someone who hates themselves. It doesnt matter the reason why, even though it seems like the number one reason people dislike or hate themselves has to do with their physical apperance. Wether they are fat or skinny, have a big nose, big ears, funny birthmarks, freckles, crooked teeth, small boobs, i think you get it. It breaks my heart because I know that when you get in that cycle it is so hard to break, I know it because I have been there. I have hated myself so much that I couldn't even stand to look at myself in the mirror or let my husband touch me. Society today tells us how we should look and how we should act, and that if we dont fit in that mold we are worthless and not fit to be a part of society. Well I think that is a load of crap!!! WHO the hell said you have to look speak or behave a certin way. You see we were created to be different. We need to learn how to embrace our differences. It there is something we dont like then there is someting we like, you know. For me it was my weight, it plagued me. When I first started lossing weight, it was prolly for the wrong reasons. It was to look hot, to fit that mold. But the more weight I lose the more I realize that the people I am trying to please dont really matter anymore, what matters is me. I found out that eating right and exercising wasnt just because I HAD to it was because I made me feel good and gave me enegry. I wish everyone would just learn to love themselves. Its not impossible. There is not one perfect human in this world. I wish I could take what I have learned and help people. I wish that the hurting people could see with the new light I have. It just hurts me so much to see people hurting because they think they are less than what they are. I may have started this jouney for the wrong reasons but I will tell you, I am continuing for me, and not because I want to be hot, but because I have learned that I can not only stand myself, but I actually love myself. The best compliment I have gotten wasn't "oh wow you have lost a lot of weight and look great", it was from my brother and my cousin, they said "you are a completely different person, you are happier and have so much more self confindence" and thats when I realized I had changed not just physically but mentally too. Everyone has the strength with in themselves to change what they think they need to. And I am not saying anyone needs to. But if the need is there, there is the strength to do it. I think the hardest hurdle to get over is the mental one, but once people start to learn to accept themselves the rest just falls into line. ARGH not only is it heartbreaking but frustrating.
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Your mind is in the right place. I agree the self-esteem comes within.
smileLisa