cich2's Journal

I am having some good days and that doesn't mean that I don't find some kind of thing to be negative about.  I am tired of fighting with my daughter and being the only one who cares about others and how they feel.  I will tell it like it is and I am also having problems with being soft on myself for things that I can't control.  I find a way to make myself cry even if it is for a little while.  I see so much stuff happening in the end and no one that will listen to me.  I love my family and I don't trust them in the same sense.  Of all the things in my life there is no trust between me and my family members. I'd rather live by myself and do the holidays like it was just another day.  I hate making so much hoopla about it.  I am by no means a scrooge.  I don't like crowds and my family can be so two faces that it isn't funny.  My holidays are spent in true hell because I can never find a place to hide for long.   I wish people would get a clue an djust leave me a lone.  I hate being in  a place full of so many people.