Today I am trying to find an answer …
Today I am trying to find an answer to how to make it through Christmas since my son died.
So, the good news: I pre-ordered the new Boys Like Girls album (because I LOVE them), but it's been quite a while since I got the confirmation e-mail saying they'd shipped the package. I was worried, so I called them and was reassured that I hadn't missed the package and they'd call me as soon as it came in.
The bad: my boss is... sometimes not entirely thorough, so my coworker Rob, the only one who keeps me sane around here, may be losing his job because he graduated 4 years ago, not 3 and the grant he's working under doesn't accept people who've been out of school more than 3 years. Fuck! He can't leave! If he leaves, I'll go crazy! I get assigned unbelievable jobs that are completely unrealistic, and frankly impossible, to achieve and he shows the boss the error of her ways. He's like a fairy godmother, "wand" and all.
The awesome: a local business is paying me for three of my photos to be put on the front cover of their pamphlets. How freaking sweet is that?
And the more bad. Everything. Fuck, I'm tired. I'm always tired lately. I haven't been sleeping much. All I want to do is read lately. And sleep. I have my first voice lesson of the new school year (not that I'm in school anymore, suckers) tonight. Here's hoping I can stay awake. Or at the very least, wake up in time.
Today I am trying to find an answer to how to make it through Christmas since my son died.
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