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I didn't really know what I was going to write in my journal today, other than to tell you all that I have not been feeling to great. I keep getting bad headaches, and I am aching all over, it's rather like mild flu, which I think is the Hep C, and the tiredness is the Chronic fatigue - the two seem to love each other and kinda bounce of each other whenever I am a bit run down.
Then I looked at my messages, and one that I had recieved from one of my many, dear DS friends said what I keep thinking - that I love all you guys so much, but sometimes can't seem to keep up with answering messages, and giving out hugs that mean something, that will let the person know I care. So I decided to put that letter, and my reply onto my journal here, and hope that you all read it, and know that I am never ever ignoring anyone, and that my thoughts are always with you wonderful people. So here goes, the message I got, and my reply;
The message was this-
On 11/18/07, 08:59am ******* wrote:
OK I am usually a smart person and can do what is required out of me but for the life of me I can not catch up on giving everyone a hug. I would like to know if it is just me because some of you have so many friends more than me and I would like to be everybody's friend. I don't like to just say "hug to you" I like the person to know I care and that I have read their journal and know how they are doing in their life.
So someone let me in on the secret because I can not delete people just because I have not talked to them in a while because they may be going through hell and that may be why I have not heard from them. I do not get offended at people who do delete people off their list but "I" just can't do it, but I do understand. So let me in on the secret?
------------------------------------------ My reply was-
Aw, you are such a sweet person!
I am the same, I struggle to keep up with all my friends, but that does not mean I am not thinking of them, it is more than likely as I'm not feeling good,and am not on the computer.
I think the secret is just to send hugs and messages when you can, and like you say let the person know that you care. I am not sure what the secret is myself, other than to try and remember that we, and others are only human, and when you are ill there is only so much you can do.
I would love to be on here every day, letting my friends know I care, and giving them all equal attention, but unfortunately that's not possible.
All I can say to you today is that it was lovely to hear from you, and I would never delete you. I understand if I don't always hear from you, and always wish you the best.
So until next time my dear friend - whenever that may be, I am thinking of you, and am wishing you the best.
Lots of love
Karen xxx
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I hope you all read this friends, and know that the truth is if you don't always hear from me, please know I am thinking of you.
I wish you all all the best, always.
Lots of love Karen xxxxx 
