Journal Entry for January 1, 2008
January 1, 2008 7:57pm
Almost forgot! michelle is getting her unemployment! Seems her old employer was pulling an old trick and holding on to her paperwork. Dept of labor …
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About Me
Webbey
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About Me
42 years old Been a chronic pain sufferer for 30 years. Had siezures starting around 11-12 that did nerve damage with each attack. Now I'm vision, hearing and mobility impaired. The last siezure damaged my stomach and partially paralyzed it. No treatment has ever been found. Fortunately the siezures slowed down in my 30's when my metabolism changed. I've also suffered anxiety/panic disorder since I was 18. Worked as a sterilization and supply tech in a hospital for 10 years and loved it until they found out my condition and forced me to quit or they would invent a reason to fire me. Been on disability since 1992. Met a lovely woman who could see past all my physical limitations. Fell in love and were married on Feb. 3, 1999. Now she is suffering unbelievable pain from a stress induced stroke and I don't know how to help her. My anxiety is shooting through the roof but I'm trying to keep it together for my wifes sake. Last thing she needs right now is to see me lose it and blame herself.
42 years old Been a chronic pain sufferer for 30 years. Had siezures starting around 11-12 that did nerve damage with each attack. Now I'm vision, hearing and mobility impaired. The last siezure damaged my stomach and partially paralyzed it. No treatment has ever been found. Fortunately the siezures slowed down in my 30's when my metabolism changed. I've also suffered anxiety/panic disorder since I was 18. Worked as a sterilization and supply tech in a hospital for 10 years and loved it until they
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I love learning about everything. I watch all those "boring" shows on how things are made. Love sci-fi. Used to read a lot but my aging eyes are making that harder and more painful. I play eve-online on my PC met some real nice folks there. I'm an only child and like my privacy but at the same time I will talk your ear off if you give me a chance :P I love animals. Animals and babies seem fascinated with me always have, haven't a clue why. I've taken at least a dozen stray cats into my home over the past 30 years. Have 3 cats and a dog at the moment. Wish I could rescue more but that's all I can handle. I love bowling but I'm too wobbly to play much now. I nearly got my black belt in judo but my condition destroyed my sense of balance so I had to stop. I love to build things. Would love to learn to be a master carpenter. I'm a ww2 history buff. My father was a war hero and sparked my interest. My eyes are too bad to drive safely so I scoot around town on an electric bike that I made. made one for my wife too. Love taking rides to the park. Got a little kiddie trailer so I can ride with my dog. Everyone gets a real hoot out of seeing her ride with me. Oh and I love dragons. Not the cudly kind or the chinese kind. I like the classic "european" style. I have a dragon shirt for every day of the week. Hey! I saw that smirk! Wipe it off right now missie! Everyone's allowed to have a quirk or two :P PS I have a real good sense of humor too :)
I love learning about everything. I watch all those "boring" shows on how things are made. Love sci-fi.
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Journal Entry for January 1, 2008
January 1, 2008 7:46pm
Hello everyone and HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
Sorry I've been out of touch for so long. Depression really has a firm grip on me atm.
Michell is still …
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Journal Entry for November 4, 2007
November 4, 2007 10:02am
Well this week wasn't all that bad. Michelles pain was flaring up but not as bad as usual. I had a test at my neurologists for carpal tunnel and …
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Journal Entry for October 24, 2007
October 24, 2007 2:18pm
I have a lot to write but only 10 mins atm so in brief:
Michelle just found out today that her former employer is challenging her claim for …
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Journal Entry for October 16, 2007
October 16, 2007 10:16am
Wow! have I been out of it! My doc put me on amitriptyline along with my valium to help me with my added anxiety over michelle.
I was sleeping all …
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Reading your story please update us....what has happened? how are you and your wife>?
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Happy New Year to you both, i wish you all the best & hope for only good things to happen for you & your wife in this year to come :) Giiiiiant huuuuuugs xoxoxoxox
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Suffering has been stronger than all other teaching, and has taught me to understand what your heart used to be. I have been bent and broken, but - I hope - into a better shape. --Charles Dickens Hope you have a wonderful Sunday. --Ouch
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Wishing you a wonderful pain free weekend. Let's get together this Wed at 9am PST to chat. Last week was so much fun. Ouch
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Hi Webbey, What a lovely tribute to your beautiful cat, Riki. I'm sure she's watching over you from the Other Side, & will be there to greet you & Michelle when it's your time to travel there. Your other pets look so sweet! Take care, C.M.
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Close Chronic Pain
Wife has intense sharp head pain with pressure along with burning or freezing sensation on scalp that is spreading
Treatments
- Cymbalta Not Working
- no effect other than bad mood and nausea
- Heat Somewhat Helpful
- works when she feels cold in her scalp. Likewise a cold pack helps for the burning.
- Hydrocodone Not Working
- intense reaction. uncontrollable vomitting and migraine reqiring an ER visit and compazine IV. She actually cracked her ribs from the violent wretching
- Lidoderm Somewhat Helpful
- helped a bit with her hip pain but can't use it on the scalp
- Lyrica Not Working
- worked in the beginning but effect did not last long and quickly reached the maximum limit of 300mg/day then switched to neurontin
- Naproxen Not Working
- no effect pain is much to intense for this medication to even begin to touch it
- Neurontin Somewhat Helpful
- worked initially but effect faded over time requiring massive does that knocked her out for 16 hours+
- Elavil Somewhat Helpful
- used for depression but found to have pain relieving qualities. Unfortunately this medication also makes you sleep for hours. and again over time effects seem to wear off requiring higher and higher doses. now combining with neurontin which helps a bit but knocks her out could for the better part of a day
Close Anxiety
Been suffering anxiety for 24 years now. Started when I was 18. I had/have a lot of untreatable neurological disorders and I had my drunken grandmother forced on me to care for. My parents would leave her with me and take off to get away from her abusive behavior. I was anxiety free for 2 years after my grandmother passed away but it came back and is still here
Treatments
- Breathing Exercises Somewhat Helpful
- Relaxation exercises can help but it's very hard to relax in the middle of a panic attack. It's a force of will you have to break through but once you do it will help lower not eliminate but lower the level of anxiety.
- BuSpar Not Working
- might as well have been taking tic tacs
- Klonopin Not Working
- put me in a foul mood all the time and no relief
- Meditation Working / Worked
- same as breathing exercises. can help assuming you can calm yourself down enough to meditate
- Paxil Not Working
- don't laugh :) gave me a permanent erection that was "unrelievable". Told the doctor it turned me into a coffee table sweeper. First time I ever saw a doctor blush :P
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- always works for anything in your life. negative thinking just leads to depression. But how do you think positive during a panic attack?
- Valium Working / Worked
- This works well for me. Used it to wean me off dependency on xanax. Not as strong as xanax but it lasts a whole lot longer so the risk of addiction is much lower. You WILL be addicted as with any narcotic medication but there is little or no withdrawal because it stays in your body for 24-48 hours before fading away. Take it once or twice a day and you should be fine. The only side effect I noticed in the past 10 years is a little sleepiness and I'll be cranky if I miss a dose
- Xanax Working / Worked
- worked within 5 minutes but AVOID at all costs. HIGHLY addictive. Keep it for panic attacks only. The effects start to wear off in the first hour and the medicine is completely out of your system in 4. leaving you feeling worse than before. Try valium as a replacement has a much longer half life in your system tho not as strong as xanax
- Zoloft Not Working
- as helpful as tic tacs again I'm afraid to say.
- Valerian Working / Worked
- hey! Something "homeopathic" or "herbal" that actually works! Effects were similar to valium. Took it with my valium on bad days for added relief and it does help. Even alone it it works but not nearly as well as prescription meds. Makes you sleepy and can give you heartburn so take it with plenty of water. These are huge horespills.
