ForeverProject86's Journal

Shadow's anniversry was on Father's day. Sally's is on the twenty-eighth of this month.

I'm not sure if I'm ready to move those photo's yet. I still get teary, but I try to remember the good days- my Mom and I were talking about it and she said that she still gets sad sometimes. Still- his pictures haven't moved in a year.  Not sure if I have the will to move them, seeing as it'd be weird to do so. Three days before Father's day I found myself crying like I did when he first passed- but I wasn't exactly sure why. I wasn't sure if I was actually sad about him being gone or if I cried because I missed the good times. Not sure.. 

Even as I write this- it makes things a little hard. I love him- always will, I guess it pulls at my heart strings to be honest. Which is said to be perfectly normal. 

I miss Sally too- sometimes it's still weird to walk around my Mom's house and not see any animals there, happily wagging their tails to greet you. I still walk around my Grandpa's house andd remember when they were both puppies and the joy there was when we brought them home for the first time- when they'd follow you around, so egar to play. 

Tugging on the leashes during walks, even if you tried to teach them not too- they just couldn't wait to get to those trees! 

Sometimes I look at Blue. I feel bad for him, he's old, pretty much deaf and blind.. Trouble is- I know it's probably his time- my Grandfather just doesn't want to accept it. I understand it.. I didn't want to either...

I donno'.. I look at him sometimes and it breaks my heart just to think about it. I guess lately- with my Uncle gone for the time being that I've been able to think. I guess it's hit me late. Somehow it's almost just as hard- even if I focus on the good times with my Pups.. 

I'll always love them. They were my best friends for the longest time... 

I guess, I just miss them still.. Maybe I'm not ready to let them go yet- is that odd..?

*sigh* 

I love my Punk Pupper to this day and I love that little spaz of a dog: Boo Boo. 

 In rememberance of Shadow: June 21st, 2008

In rememberance of Sally : June 28th, 2007

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