Journal Entry for February 20, 2009
February 20, 2009 12:01pm
It's been awhile since I've written. I've been busy with our new puppy Maverick. He is a 10 week old Akita and we've had …
vanillabean 
12:04pm, February 20, 2009
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About Me
vanillabean
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About Me
Started experiencing panic attacks about 2 years ago. I didn't have that many panic attacks but had one at work in mid July which led to daily anxiety and a tremendous fear of having future panic attacks.
Started experiencing panic attacks about 2 years ago. I didn't have that many panic attacks but had one at work in mid July which led to daily anxiety and a tremendous fear of having future panic attacks.
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Interests
RN, married, have 2 sons(14 yrs and 11yrs). Love walking, reading, yoga, and tennis.
RN, married, have 2 sons(14 yrs and 11yrs). Love walking, reading, yoga, and tennis.
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Recent Activity
November 12
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vanillabean wrote a discussion post in the Pet Bereavement support group: Grief around the holidays 4:11pm
My dog Jasper died in January. He was 13 yrs old and had cancer. We had to put him down and know we did…
March 25
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vanillabean turned 40 12:00am
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Journal Entry for February 1, 2009
February 1, 2009 9:00pm
Here it is Sunday, four days since Jasper's passing. Friday I woke up and faced my first day alone. The kids went back to school and …
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Life Without Jasper. My Journey Through the Loss of a Pet.
January 30, 2009 4:36pm
Today I decided I would start keeping a journal of my thoughts and feelings regarding the loss of my dog Jasper. I feel journaling is a way to …
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Journal Entry for June 16, 2008
June 16, 2008 1:33pm
After 2 visits to the rheumatologist and some additional lab work I've been told by the doctor that there is no evidence of autoimmune disease …
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Journal Entry for April 22, 2008
April 22, 2008 4:45pm
Well today is a bit better so I think I will upgrade the face from horrible to bad. I got up this morning feeling a little anxious, not …
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Prayer
You have the strength.
Prayer
Best wishes for your doctor's appointment.
Hug
How is your puppy little Maverick getting on? is he chewing everything? lol xxxx
Hug
I am so sorry for your loss of Jasper. I can tell by your comments you truly loved him. I do understand. I lost my sweet friend Zachary last month to renal failure and am still struggling terribly with the loss.
To compound matters now my anxiety and panic attacks have increased with his loss. He was so calming for me.
It just is so difficult to loose our babies. The world seems so empty without them. I hope your pain has lessened a bit.
Moment of Peace
Thank you so much for your words of support. Maggie was my best buddy and I miss her every day. It must be a joy to have a new puppy - have fun. Good wishes.
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Treatments
- Breathwork Working / Worked
- Really helps in early stages of anxiety.
- Lexapro Not Working
- I had a horrible reaction to this drug and had to come off of it after 8 days. Excessive sweating, increased anxiety, insomnia, no appetite, nausea, diarrhea. Felt better immediately after I stopped it.
- Meditation Working / Worked
- Just started but have already noticed a significant decrease in my anxiety
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- When I feel an anxiety attack coming on, I replace my catastrophic thoughts with realistic ones (I can't die of a panic attack. I've been through this before and I'm ok. There is nothing wrong with me.)
- Prayer Working / Worked
- I'm a Christian but over the past few years I haven't been going to church or praying regularly. Since I started going through this I've been reading daily bible passages and praying. It has really helped me. I know that know matter what I can always count on God to help me through this.
- Xanax Working / Worked
- I only take occasionally as a last resort when I'm feeling overwhelmed and my other coping mechanisms aren't working
- Fish Oil Working / Worked
- and a daily multivitamin
Close Pet Bereavement
My dog, Jasper, was just diagnosed with metastatic lung cancer. He's 12 years old and we've had him since he was a puppy. I know the end is near and I'm having a hard time dealing with this.
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