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laura31 
hey guys,
4am and another long night of torture. my parents are out of town for the weekend and its the first night i've been alone in my house since my diagnosis and worsening depression, anxiety and insomnia.
right now i feel scared and so unbelievably alone. i just want to go to sleep and dream sweet dreams and wake up tomorrow with a new day having overcome the long scary night.
i have cried on and off for the last 4 hours with no apparant reason. whilst lying in bed every night feeling absolutely shit i have some comfort in knowing my parents are in the next room. someone who loves me and will sit up with me all night if need be (though i rarely take them up on that) now that they aren't here i feel alone and unbelievably paranoid that someone is lingering in the dark or something bad s going to happen. i just feel like screaming and running and finding someone to help me. i need someone to talk to, to sit with me but all my friends are busy or asleep!
ahhh just wanted2do something productive.
thanks for reading!
xx
